Unexpected: Chapter11

This is like an honesty chapter, kl elsecrets are told now. Oh, and before u say anything I know the chapter is short.

Everything will be explained.

Enjoy! 

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Previously:

I cried for ages into his chest, and he tried so hard to make me calm down but I couldn't. 

It all finally made sense. I am in love with Turki, and I projected myself to another guy bcuz I wanted to gain Turki's attention. Now, I'm used and abused to a degree that I disgust my own husband. I let jealousy control me, and I made the biggest mistake of my life. The one thought that couldn't leave my mind was:

I am in love with Turki. 

After I could breathe normally again; I got up and went into the bathroom to shower. I scrubbed myself till my skin went red; I was disgusted by myself. I couldn't believe I was that low, how could I not notice how Waleed was? 

I opened my closet, and found one of Turki's hoodies, I put it on with some leggings. I went out to find Turki sitting on the couch wondering off to space.

Anoud: esh tfkr feh?

Turki: fek.

He tapped the place next to him on the couch, and I went and sat down next to him. We were quiet for a while, and I liked that bcuz I knew that the day hasn't come to an end yet. I put my head on his shoulder, and he put his arm around me. 

Turki: agolik sir?

Anoud: ee?

Turki: ana 3'by.

Anoud: leh?

Turki: tt4kren lma you were 7 w I was a 10 year old, w kna we were going to move back to Shargiya?

Anoud: off, ma ansa 4ak elyom, 97t 9ya7 3shan kant Maha btro7 w knt agolik a7sn yarb ent l7alk tro7.

Turki: ya eni knt m39b 3shank tgolen ki4a.

Anoud: esh aswy ent knt tkrhni.

Turki laughed, and shook his head.

Turki: 3omry ma krhtik 3noud.

Anoud: ela 7ta a5tht my doll and my favourite teddy bear, w kman 39'etni gbl ma tro7! I still have a mark mnik tara.

Turki: ma a54t'hm 3shan ag'hrk, I wanted them bcuz they reminded me of you. Adri ena u have a mark, I look at at every day.

Anoud: yallaa at7adak weenha?

Turki: henaa!

And the put his finger on the skin under my ear. I got goosebumps, and stepped back slightly. 3la 6ol shal yda. I laughed at the fact that he remembered, w I didn't want him to feel awkward. 

I had to ask, my curiosity was eating me up! 

Anoud: Turki, who's the blonde you had at the apartment a few months ago?

Turki: you saw?

Anoud: ee.

Turki: ha4i zojat wa7d kan m3y bljam3a w hiya tsht3'l photographer.. 3zmtaha heya w zojha 3la elshiga 3shan she meets u, bes ma knti feh. She had an art gallery opening gbl 4 sh'hor w I left u an invite, bes ma jeeti.

Anoud: ugh, ela jeet. I just saw you with her, and I left.

Turki: she's pregnant, and married 3noud.

Anoud: I just thought..

Turki: there isn't anyone other than you, and there won't be ever.

I blushed at his words, but tears were threatening to fall. I don't deserve him, at all. He deserves much better, some one who isn't a sl*t like me.

Turki: 3noud, tt4kren lma rj3t min eldwam? W knt m39b? 

Anoud: lma u demanded ena nro7 germany 3la 6ol?

Turki: ee.. You never asked why.

Anoud: I was too scared.

Turki: 6b 5leny agolik. That day w ana ga3d bldwam, jani Waleed. Jls ysolfli 3nik, w ygoli ashya2 3nik ma td5l elmu5. Ana 6b3n ma 9dgtah, w ygoli awrek conversations w ethbat w klshy. Gltla ena mar7 a9dgik, l2na I know it's not like you to do such things. I came back home angry, I couldn't believe ena my own friend had the decency to say ashya2 3n zojty, abd mo sahla ena a7d ygol elashya2 eli Waleed galha. Fa lma rj3t, ma t7mlt knt abi a6l3 min elbld basr3 wgt. Knt aby ab3dik 3n Waleed as much as I can, l2ni knt adri ena nawe shy 3alek. I couldn't do it to you though. You wanted t0 stay so bad I couldn't say no. Fa lma jena hena, 5ft eni akon m9'aygik fa 9rt I work extra hours, and study in the library. I thought you wanted me to stay away.

He took a deep breath, and continued talking.

Turki: 6b3n it hurt me so much to have to stay away from you, to have you living so close, yet so far. I've been in love you for as long as I can remember, bes I couldn't do that to you. You deserve so much better than a guy who lies to you and manipulates you into marrying him. It was the only way I could get you though. I just never thought you'd actually agree to my crazy idea, but you did. I was so happy, more than words. I never faked the love, concern, worry, excitement. Everything I did was not faked. If only I knew ena what I was doing was only pushing you towards Waleed. I would've never left the apartment. 

He finally stopped talking, and he let out a huge breath. My eyes were wide open, he loved me? Turki loves me? When? How? Why?

Anoud: you.

I took his finger.

Anoud: love.

I moved his finger towards me, so he was pointing at me. 

Anoud: me?

He gave me his one dimpled shy smile, and my heart melted at the sight. 

Turki: ee, I love you. 

I was still shocked, and I'm sure my face reflected the fact that I wasn't understanding. So Turki took both my hands, and put them on top of his chest. 

Turki: tsm3en glby?

I nodded while still looking with wide eyes.

Turki: ha4a 7agik. Enty glby w ro7y w kli. Enty mo n9i elthani, enty ana fe jism thani, w fe mkan thani bNfs elwagt. Ana a 7 b i k. 

I started crying and then I fisted my hands and started hitting his chest. 

Anoud: e4a t7beni 6lgni.

His wide eyes, and jaw falling is a clear sign of him being shocked.

Turki: 3noud, lw sm7ty ana ma hmni eli 9ar.

Anoud: ana hmni! Turki! 6alegni! 

Turki: 3noud la tst3jlen! Fkri feha shwy, leeh tbeni a6lgik? Ana a7bik.. Ma abi mnik shy wallaa! Bes 5alek halftra.

Anoud: lw sm7t, 6alegni. 

Turki: krhteni 9a7?

Anoud: 6legni, w bes.

I don't deserve him, I'm broken and bruised. I'm used and abused. He deserves the best, and I'm the furthest thing from the best. He'll eventually realize that he doesn't want a girl who's used and abused, he doesn't want a sl*t as a wife. No one does, and he's an amazing guy. He deserves the best, and I don't deserve. Adri ena glbi byn7rg w ytg63 3aleh e4a tzwj w7da thanya, bes I can't let him stay with me especially after what happened. 

Turki: mt2akda mn eltbena?

Anoud: more than anything.

Turki: ajl, enti 6alig. 

To be continued...

xo