Unexpected: Chapter 18 (FINALE)

The last chapter</3.

Enjoy! 

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I was cooing at  Maha's 6 months along baby-bump. 

Anoud: you're such a cute pregnant person ma9adg!!! I can't believe it! Reemo is only what 3? And you're already pregnant again. Unfair! 

She laughed at my reaction, and kept rubbing her stomach. 

Maha: agolik jebi a kid ma tsm3en elklam.

I gave her a look.

Anoud: you do realize it takes two people to make a baby?

Maha: I'm pretty sure my brother doesn't mind, at all.

Faisal and Turki came into the living room and they were talking excitedly about something; must be soccer related. Faisal immediately took Maha's hand and kissed her forehead, while Turki pressed a kiss to the back of my head. I blushed, as usual.

Anoud: hi.

Turki: hala 7bebti, hi barney.

I laughed at Turki's way of frustrating Maha. Maha gave me a look, so I bit my lips to stop myself from laughing.

Turki's P.O.V: 

I had an arm wrapped around Anoud's shoulder, and my eyes set on Maha's baby bump. She looked so happy, even though she got so big.

Turki: offh Maha! 7amil bBaby wla bElephant enti? Leeh samna kitha?

Maha: heyyy! Zwdt'ha ent w wjhik elyom.

Anoud laughed softly, and poked me in the ribs with her tiny fingers, I looked down at her.

Turki: what?

Anoud: gool sorry! 7ram e5tik looks adorable!

I suddenly couldn't focus on what Anoud was saying, I was staring at her face. Could it be possible that she gets prettier every time I look at her? Does it make sense to anyone else that my breath catches in my throat every time I see her? I don't know if it's bcuz I'm so in love with her or if it's bcuz she just that gorgeous. Can you even imagine how beautiful she would be if she got pregnant with my baby?

 I suddenly got the urge to have a baby and get Anoud pregnant. The idea of us having a kid had been roaming through my mind for a while, and now seeing Maha makes me want it even more. I don't know if she'll be on board with it, but I want it so bad.

Anoud: Turki? Hello? Ween tn7t?

Maha: 5alih o5oy el3ashg elwlhan.

I removed my arm from Anoud's shoulder, and took her hand. I started pulling her out of my sister's house. 

Maha: TURKI! Ween ray7?

Anoud: 7bebi? Ween jalsen nro7? Hello?

I stopped walking and Anoud ran into my back. I turned around and saw Anoud rubbing her nose.

Anoud: ouch! Wsh feek? 

Maha: seriously! Esh jak fj2a?

Turki: ana w 3nod bnro7!

Anoud: weeen bnro7?! Mo 3la asas elyom bn6l3 m3 Maha w Faisal?! 

Maha: you promised a day out Turki! I haven't seen my best friend in ages, and I finally got mama to watch Reemi. Please please? 

Turki: sorry bes we're going home! I have a surprise planned. 

Anoud: wsho ha4i elsurprise eli fj2a? W leeeeeh? 

Turki: surprise mfro9' mnzman swenaha bes ma swenaha yet. 

Maha: w esh hoo ya mjnon?

Faisal: al7in bgolk bswi baby.

Turki: yup.

Maha: aha btro7 elbeet tswi baby y3ny? 

At that moment Reem came in with my mother and father.

Noura: men bysawy baby?

Maha: men y3ny ya mama? 3noud w Turki.

Reem ran over to me and pulled on my pants. 

Reem: 5alo Turki how you make a baby?

Khalid: Reem 5ly 5alik w zojta yro7on bet'hm wrahm sh3'l.

Anoud turned a million shade of red and covered her face with her hands, while my family laughed. I laughed with them, and whispered in her ear.

Turki: I'm pretty sure the process will be so much fun. 

I winked at her for even more emphasis.

Anoud's P.O.V:

I was sitting in the car, and I kept looking back at Turki while he drove. I couldn't believe it. We're finally together.

We went through so much crap to get to where we are today. El7amdelilah, rbi ytamem. 

I thought back to the things we went through till we got to where we are today.

*Flashback*

I had called him more than 20 times that day and he still didn't answer. I was pretty sure I lost him forever. 

So I'd had given up, and later that night I heard that he left to Germany again. I was in a bad state and no one could help me. I did it to myself, and I have to accept that.

A few weeks later, I was back to work. I'm emotionless, and numb. I've been a machine, just working.

So with time, I had slowly given up on our relationship. I was pretty much living void of any emotion or life, and that was working for me. Until the day I heard the news, Turki was very sick and he was admitted into the hospital. 

I panicked when I heard the news. I felt the urge to see him asap. What happened suddenly? Why did he need to go the hospital? All these questions were running through my mind and I was going crazy with worry.

The next day I had enough courage to go see him in the hospital. I called Maha and asked her if there was anyone, she said that everyone left and she was alone. 

I went into his hospital room, and my  body stopped working at that moment; starting from my heartbeat to my blood flow and breathing. It felt as if my world was being crushed at that moment. 

Maha left us alone to give me my privacy, and I started talking to him. Even though, I didn't know if he was listening or not. He stayed for a few weeks at the hospital, and everyday I would go and stay by him until his family came then I would leave. 

Week #1:

He looked as if he was sleeping peacefully. If anyone saw him they'd think he was just resting, no one would think that he had a heart surgery. Can he hear me? I don't know. Do I miss him? More than anything. What will I do when he wakes up? I don't know.

Week #2:

Anoud: Turki 7bebi Maha al7en is almost 16 weeks along, y3ny 4 sh'hor. 

I smiled at that thought, she was already pregnant with her second baby when me and Turki didn't have our first yet. When will we have our kids? Will he even want me after he wakes up? 

Anoud: agralk elsports news mn elnews papers? I know you must miss it. You missed a few games this week. 

I opened the news paper to the sports section. Deep down I knew if anyone saw me they'd think I was crazy, but I didn't mind. 

And so the weeks went along, until he finally woke up. When he did, I was so happy I couldn't stop crying. I had to leave him though because even though we share a love so deep, I am not his wife. I am no one to him. 

Until the day came, where my my mom came in with her phone. And gave me another shock.

Aljohara: 3noud, ana mali d5l esh 9ar benk enti wyah bes mbyn ena elwld ybek. 

Anoud: men?

Aljohara: Turki! 

Anoud: tgdmli mra thanya?

Aljohara: ee! W e4a rf9'teh bhawshk! Ya mama enti t7bon b39' mafy sbab yb3dkm 3n b39' wallah!

*End of flashback*

A tear fell without me realizing it, and Turki looked at me. 

Turki: 7abebti, are you okay?

I brushed off my tear, I hated that time of my life. I thought I lost him forever, and I don't want to remember that ever. 

Anoud: I'm fine just remembering some bad stuff.

Turki: t7ben tnkden 3la nfsik ya 7bebti leh? 

Anoud: tra ana a7bk.

Turki: w ana a7bk w atnfsk w a3sh8ik. 

And they lived happily. I won't tell you how many kids they had, or anything else. They just lived happily. Their marriage had their ups and downs, but it worked out. They were in love, and that was all that mattered.

The end...

xo

I don't know if I'll write a story after this or not, but all I want to right now is to thank you guys for reading my blog. I had fun doing this, w if I don't write another one I'm surely going to miss it more than anything. I grew attached to the characters more than any of you. I will admit that I sometimes get more than frustrated because of the blog, and I just get even angrier whenever I see some people commenting in rude ways. But all I can say is thank you. I owe this blog so much and I can go on all day talking about it. I hope this will be a fitting ending for it.

Lots of love,

Hala.

Unexpected: Chapter17

Sorry for the late post I had a tutor :$!

There's only one chapter left to this story, god I can't believe I finished 2 stories already</3.

Enjoy x
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Previously:

Anoud: I thought you said you were horrible with expressing emotions. 
Turki: does that mean I get a second chance? 
Anoud: what does a second chance mean?
Turki: shall we start all over?

I kept quiet for a long time and then I hung up.

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I woke up the next morning with a huge smile painted on my face. Everytime I remember what Turki told me last night, my smile stretches wider. I barely got any sleep, but I'm high on excitement right now.

I tied my hair in a high ponytail, and wore my work clothes. I skipped down the stairs and I kissed my mom good morning.

Aljohara: wsh 3nda  el7lu mrwg elyom?
Anoud: lazm ya mama nrwg daym.
Aljohara: o7, wsh hlmzaj elraheb?
Anoud: sirrrrrr.
Aljohara: wallaaa amrk 3jeb!

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I was working on a case when my phone rang it was Maha. Esh 3ndaha?

Maha: hello!
Anoud: hala?
Maha: sooo esh 3ndk?
Anoud: wla shy?
Maha: kwys! T3aleli after work. La tt25ren!

I was almost done with my work when my boss came in and I gave her smile.

Boss: hey, I have work for you.
Anoud: more work?
Boss: yeah, about 30 files.

My eyes went wide, more work? I'll be late and Maha will kill me. Yarabih.

File #1

I can do this it's easy.

File #7

My head is aching, I don't remember being a corporate lawyer being this hard. Numbers everywhere.

File #14

There's something wrong. Why aren't the numbers calculating?

File #28

Almost done. Maha will kill me I'm like 4 hours late.

File #30

Last one, finally.

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I walked into Maha's house and I threw myself on the couch.

Anoud: MAHA! Weenk?

No response.

Anoud: hw Mahoy! Weenk ya bnt?

Still no response.

Anoud: tstahblen? Bro7  betna.

"I want to ask you to live life by my side. The best achievement of my life will be convincing you to be my wife. I want I need to be entirely mine. I am captured by your love, and I don't want to be rescued. If I was asked what a perfect life means I would say that it is one by your side. I get nervous when I see you; I get shivers when I hear your voice. Your presence tinkles my bones, and your eyes make me fall deeper in love with you every time. My heart grows restless for you, and only you. So, will you marry me?"

I was too shocked to speak. There was Turki on his knee and I was speechless. He proposed. To me. I felt tears well up in my eyes. My mixed emotions gave me millions of reasons why I should say yes and a million more on why I should say no.

Yes, because I'm in love with you.

No, because I don't deserve him.

Yes, because he's perfect.

No, because he should have better.

Yes, because he cares.

No, because I'm so so so so so stupid.

So I did what I know how to do best I ran away and left him.

I sat in Maha's garden and cried even more. If you asked me why I was crying, I wouldn't know how to answer because I seriously don't know why. Probably because of my mixed emotions? My stupid brain? I. Don't. Know.

Maha: what on earth was that?
Anoud: mdri.
Maha: wsho ely mdri?
Anoud: ma 2dri. Maha ma 2dri. I'm just confused, please. I just want to go home.
Maha: and do what? Cry some more? What more can the poor guy do?! 5la9! Stop being like this. God you guys love each other so much but you're too stubborn.
Anoud: please, Maha. I just want to go home.
Maha: go home and cry about your pathetic life some more. Gosh! Can you think?! Can you at least consider his f*cking feelings. 


Turki's P.O.V:

I left Maha's house in a rush. Len meta bdos 3la kramti 3shanha? M95t elsalfa. W ana bes al7g wraha mthl elklb. G3dt asog bdon hdf for an hour. The hour became 2, and then the 2 became 4 until I found myself in front of her house. Why do I do this to myself?

I have to get over her. I can't keep doing this to myself, and to her.


Anoud's P.O.V:

God, why can't I stop crying? I'm such a baby. I should calm down and think. I need to think properly. Am I willing to say yes and just accept the fact that I can never be with anyone other than him? Or will I say no and realize that there's a big fat chance of him marrying someone else? 

Am I willing to see him with another woman? Do I want another woman to wear his ring? Am I okay with visiting his future wife when she gives birth to his baby? I don't know. I'm so confused. Gosh, I have to think properly.

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It's been a week since he proposed to me and I've been thinking non-stop about it. Did I do the right thing? Why can't I just yes? I'm so stupid! I should just say yes. I can't live without him. I can not. 

So I called him. 

The phone rang and rang and rang. 

Why isn't he picking up?

And then it stopped ringing.

He hung up on me. He is fed up with me. 

I lost the love of my life, forever.

To be continued...

xo

Unexpected: Chapter16

SURPRISE w hadiyaaa! It's short, but it isn't even the usual day I post. This is such an emotional chapter mdri leeh kitha.

Enjoy ya 7lwen!

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Previously:

Anoud: umm.. shofy hwa ena ana! Ana tgdmlii wa7d..
Maha: WHAT?

What I didn't know was that Maha was calling Turki and he heard everything I said.

Maha: dgega Turki akmlmk b3d shwy. 

My eyes opened wide. God what will he say now? I didn't want him to hear that. 

Maha: huh? Keef?

Anoud: 9aa7!! 7ta ana agol men ybi m6lga erta3t yom jani el5br. 

Maha: 3nouda-

Anoud: la tgolen 3nouda.

Maha: leeh?

Anoud: Waleed kan ynadeni 3nouda.

Maha: oh.

Anoud: ee..

Maha: as I was saying before I was rudely interrupted.

Anoud: eee, esh tb3'en tgolen?

Maha: you're perfect. Any guy would be lucky to have you. You're beautiful, smart, and sweet. And I'm not just saying that because you're my bestfriend.

I laughed at Maha; she really was the perfect bestfriend.

Anoud: Maha, please.

Maha: they'll keep coming 3noudi.

Anoud: and I'll keep refusing.

Maha: why?

Anoud: because if I can't be his, then I won't be anyone else's.

Maha: you love him this much? 

Anoud: more than you know.

Maha: you know you could've..

Anoud: adry ana swet'ha bNfsi.

We kept quiet for a while.

Anoud: oh w mahoy?

Maha: I won't tell Turki ena you're planning to refuse every guy who will propose to you.

Anoud: thank you!

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I was woken up from my sleep by my phone ringing loudly. Why didn't I put it on silent? God it's so annoying. I answered it with my eyes half open.

Anoud: alo?

There was no answer. Hw, men ydg n9 elLeel wla yrd?

Anoud: alo? A7d m3i?

Still no answer. I took the phone off my ear and the screen was lit brightly, and I saw the number. It's an international number; a german number. My breath caught in my throat, is it him? Why isn't he answering then?

I kept quiet and listened to his breathing. What do I do? I should probably hang up. I couldn't bring myself to reply.

Anoud: I'll hang up. 

Still no answer. 

I hung up on him after a while of waiting. I wished to hear his voice, but I didn't. Something inside of me snapped, and I felt the urge to bring a paper and pen and start writing all that I feel and put them into words.

I hate how he pretends like I doesn't exist, and that makes wish I didn't. Does it bother him that we don't talk anymore? The salt in my wounds keeps burning me, and I keep feeling the pain. I'm scared of being hurt some more, and the blood in my veins is pumping as strong as ever. My insecurities are as shouting as loud as sirens through a silent night. A heart can't be broken if it stopped beating, and I wish mine stopped beating before it got broken. I didn't love him. I just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe just maybe he was good to my ego? I couldn't possibly love him because you don't destroy the person you love. I just crave a hug so tight from him that brings all my broken pieces together. I acted as if it all wasn't a big deal, but I was really just breaking my own heart. 

Turki's P.O.V:

I sat on my apartment's couch, so that was it. A sign from god that I should move on, some guy proposed to her. I just want to be able to look at her and not feel so hurt by her. She doesn't know that in a crowded place, my eyes search for her and only her. I hate myself so much for still loving you more than myself. I'm so angry for myself for not letting you go. My nightmares are all about losing her, and that day my biggest nightmare came true. I lost her. I guess if I really do love her I should just let her move on, right? I can't. I tried so hard but I just can't. I should be over her, but I'm not. She haunts me every second, every minute, and every hour of every day. A person doesn't know what real suffering is until they've fallen in love with someone who doesn't share their feelings. A person doesn't know what real pain is until they come so close to getting what they've been wanting their whole lives and then just before their fingers are allowed to even brush against it; it evaporates into thin air. Doesn't she understand that I'm willing to kiss her scarred skin? Can't she understand that when she lets me in I won't destroy her?

I can't just let her go this easy; I have to get her back. How did I let us end up like this? She's worth fighting for I just didn't understand that until now, is it too late? So I did the craziest thing I've done in my life. I picked up my phone and dialled her number. 

It rang.

And rang.

And rang.

Until she finally picked up.

Turki: I can't unlove you. I'm truly sorry, but I can't. Maybe you don't love me, and maybe you never did and never will, but I love you. No, I am in love with you. I love you and it's that simple. There isn't a switch for my feelings, and I can't just turn them off so  you can't expect me to just not love you because you think I deserve better. I don't want anyone else. I know this sounds so selfish and bitter of me, but I don't want a day to come where you smile, laugh, and be happy and I'm not the cause of that. It kills me to imagine you with someone else. I didn't only lose you when you walked out of this apartment I lost myself as well. Having a broken heart is so bad, it's like breaking your ribs. No one can ever see it, but the pain is there and it hurts every time you breathe. I don't want to take another breath where you're not mine. So like I said I am truly sorry but I'm in love with you.

I let out a huge breath after that long rant, and I waited for her reaction.

Anoud: I thought you said you were horrible with expressing emotions. 
Turki: does that mean I get a second chance? 
Anoud: what does a second chance mean?
Turki: shall we start all over?

To be continued…
xo

Unexpected: Chapter15

Hello!
Hope you like this chapter!

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Previously:

At the mention of his name I started crying even louder. 45 minutes later, when I could form a sentence that they can understand I told them what happened.

Anoud: ma-ma.. ana w Turki t6lgna.

Aljohara: huh? Leeh t6lgto ya mama?

What do I do know? What do I tell her? That I went out with some guy and he almost raped me and then I asked Turki for a divorce.

Anoud: ana gltla.
Aljohara: leeh 6yb ya mama! 

My mother was getting frustrated with me, and I know why. I would be too, I should tell her. So I did tell her, just leaving out the parts where it was all a deal and that I dated Waleed and all that crap.

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Knock, knock, knock.

Anoud: n3m?

"Ef7ti elbab!"

Anoud: mahoy go away.
Maha: 3noud lw sm7ti 7akeni! Wsh 9ar leh fj2a? 

I got up from my bed, and opened her door. She hugged me so tight, and I burst into even more tears. 

Maha: shhh, are you okay? Esh 9ar? Leeh fj2a? You guys were so in love! 

I calmed down then I told her everything, from a-z. To say that she was shocked would be an understatement.

Maha: so you're saying eno you were never really in love with my brother?
Anoud: I thought I wasn't, but I am. I'm so madly in love with him.

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I've been divorced from Turki for 3 months now; we got legally divorced awl ma rj3 hw. I miss him so much; I've literally been crying myself to sleep every night since I came back. I was laying on a couch in Maha's house. I had to baby sit Reem today while Faisal and Maha went on date night. It was almost 11 and they still weren't home. I didn't mind, but I was really tired and I had work in the morning. 

So I whatsapped her:

A: Hey! Hope u guys are having fun! Coming home anytime soon? :p 
M: Looks like we're going to take a hotel room tonight.. Hehe.. 
A: Want me to take Reemo with me? 
M: NO! It's fine Mama's coming in like 10 minutes to take her.
A: Are u sure? I don't mind tra!
M: Laa shd3wa mama is coming e9bri shwy, want the driver to drop you off? 
A: la2 it's ok. 

I fell asleep on the couch next to Reem, when I suddenly heard footsteps into the house. I was a very light sleeper, so I jumped awake. 

"Sorry ma kan ga9di agwmk. I was trying to be as quiet as possible."

My heart went into overdrive when I heard his voice. I missed him so much. My eyes welled up with tears, this was the first time I see him since we got divorced. 

Anoud: uhh, mo mshkla. 
Turki: ween Reemo?
Anoud: she's sleeping on the couch, dgega bes 5leni ajeblk her bag.

I ran over to the bathroom first, and washed my face with cold water so I wouldn't cry. I packed Reem's bag afterwards, and then I went to give it to him. Our fingers brushed against each other, and my blood warmed. 

He looked up at me, and gave me a soft smile. He put the bag's strap on his shoulder, and he carried Reem gently. I couldn't help but think that maybe if I had given him a chance when we first got married, this would would've been our life. We would've had a baby who's probably as old as Reem. 

I shook my head to clear my mind from those crazy thoughts; I have to get over him. He looks like he's fine without me so I should be fine without him as well.

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"UGH! UGH! UGH! This not is not working! God, stupid technology." I started muttering to myself, and Maha stopped playing with Reem and looked at me. 

Maha: are you okay?
Anoud: NO! I'm not.

I haven't been okay since the day I've seen him. It's like the stitches that stitched my broken heart just ripped and all the emotions that I've buried deep inside; erupted out of my heart like lava out of a volcano. 

Anoud: it's so hard! God Maha it's so hard to see him and pretend that he means nothing to me.
Maha: 3noud I understand wallaa!

I shook my head and burst into tears. 

Anoud: no you don't! Have you ever laid on your bed at night and cried because you'll never be good enough for the guy you love? Have you ever just stayed awake counting your flaws and just started to feel worse about yourself? Have you? Because I've been doing that for the past 6 months and it just doesn't seem like it's getting any better! 
Maha: gd esh t7ben Turki ya 3noud?
Anoud: gd ma hldm3i 3la fraga ya Maha.

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A month later I was sitting on the balcony while doing some work, and my mom came and sat next to me.

Aljohara: hala mama..
Anoud: hi mommy, sh3ndk?
Aljohara: shofy mama ana 3arfa enik ymkn trf9'en bes est5eeri awl. 
Anoud: mama wsh tgolen?
Aljohara: fe wa7d tgdm lk.. 
Anoud: huh? Ana? 
Aljohara: ee fkri feha mama.. 

And then she left me. What? Someone proposed to me? How? Why? A9ln mabi 3'er Turki.. Ma agdr. I was shocked when I knew. I kept thinking about it, and I just couldn't believe it. It totally slipped my mind that someone might propose to me. Who wants a divorced girl?

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"3noud! E4a ma nzlti in 5 minutes bro7 bdonk!" 

Maha screamed from downstairs. 

Anoud: bji in 1 minute! 

We were getting ready to leave for a party and Maha was taking me. I went down and I smiled at Maha.

Maha: my best friend is a hottie. Yaa gameeeeel. 

I poked my tongue out at maha and she laughed at me. 

Anoud: you know there's something different about you.

I stared hard at her, and she kept biting her lips to keep herself from smiling. She was glowing, and I think I knew why.

Anoud: are you?

She nodded, and I started screaming from excitement! 

Anoud: I'm so happy for you!
Maha: thank you! Ewaa esh elshy eli btgolena leya?

She started moving her fingers along her phone, and I start fixing my lipstick.

Anoud: umm.. shofy hwa ena ana! Ana tgdmlii wa7d..
Maha: WHAT?

What I didn't know was that Maha was calling Turki and he heard everything I said. 

To be continued…
xo

Unexpected: Chapter14

Bgolkm sir, ana ma afhm blsh3r. Abd, abd. Bes 9ayren yjoni readers w yrsloli stuff w they sound so prefect for the story so I use them. So etha shfto shy 3rbi fj2a e3rfo ena fe readers rslatli eyaha aw ana garyt'ha fe mkan.

Previously:

Anoud: 3shan 3eb.

Turki: you're beautiful. Don't ever doubt it.

When he was just about to kiss me, his father went into the kitchen.

I looked down in embarrassment, and mentally begged Turki to step away from me. This time he reacted in a way that is so different. He carefully put his fingers under my chin, and lifted my face up. I was panicking on the inside for 2 reasons; awl shay his dad is right next to us, and I know that if he kisses me right now I'll lose all my power. 

I closed my eyes , and waited. He pressed his lips on my chin, and my cheeks turned to 50 shades of red. It was a simple and tiny thing but it did wonders to me even though I barely felt it. He stepped away from me, and went up to his dad and kissed his forehead.

Turki: 9ba7 el5eer yuba.

Khalid: laa bdri 3lek, tw tshof obok.

I blushed even more if that was possible and looked down. Turki laughed a nervous laugh, and scratched his neck.

Turki: m3lesh yuba, I was.. distracted. 

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It's been 3 months since my divorce mn Turki. B5l9 3edti in 2 weeks, and since I finished my course I decided ena I want to go back home. B3d ma a5l9 3edti mayjoz ag3d m3h zyada, and I couldn't take it anymore. Every day it was harder for me to ignore him, to ignore the pull we have, and to ignore my feelings. I booked my ticket ams, so I'm leaving tomorrow morning. I haven't told Turki yet. I called Reema, and asked her to come over. 

Reema: y3ny 5la9? Magdr a3'yr rayich?

Anoud: asfa, bes la2.

Reema: bes bes enti et7bena! W uhwa y7bch! 

Anoud: Reema, it's more complicated than that. You know esh 9ar! I just can't.

Reema: bes 3nouda uhwa ra9'y! 

Anoud: ana ma ar9'a! 

After a while of having the same fight with Reema; she gave up on convincing me.

Reema: 5l9ty mn jn6tich? 

Anoud: ee 9ket'ha ams b3d ma 7jzt. 

Reema: 7acheteh? Wla byg3ad min elnom bacher w bylga note w yrta3 elmscheen?

Anoud: laa bgola.

At the same moment Turki entered the apartment with a bag of groceries, and he was talking loudly on his phone. He closed the door with his foot, and I just couldn't focus on what Reema was saying. It hit me that I won't be waking up to his face anymore, and that another woman might take my place. The pain was unbearable, but this was for the best.

Turki: laa2 wallaa mgdar elyom..

…

Turki: msht'hi a6b5 fa 8rrt a6b5 lzojty elyom..

He laughed. Ahh ya galbi ana leh swet ki4a bnfsy?

Turki: ee tgdr tgol date night. 

Reema poked my shoulder, and I turned around to look at her.

Reema: you okay?

Anoud: no.

Reema: tra you have time to change your mind tra.

Anoud: it's for the best 5la9.

She stood up, and I stood up with her to hug her. I hugged her tight, and my eyes immediately were filled with tears. 

Reema: shhh.. I'll miss you bes mar7 ng63. 

Anoud: lw sm7ti.

Reema: hala?

Anoud: take care of him for me, please. 

Reema: enshallah 7bebti. 

Anoud: I love you.

And I said my goodbyes to Reema. I will miss her so much, but I feel better with her being near to him. 

~

We were sitting on the table and I could barely eat. I was feeling so nervous, how will he take it? Will he be mad? I'm just so scared; I know I'll lose him but I just can't do it to myself anymore.

Turki: fek shy?

Anoud: huh?

Turki: are you okay?

Anoud: Turki ana raj3a elriya9' bokra.

Turki: what? 

Anoud: I booked a ticket and I'm going back home.

Turki: leeeh?

Anoud: 3shan ent 6lgtni w 3edti bt5l9, w I just can't stay here anymore. I just can't face you anymore.

He threw his fork on the plate, and stood up to leave. He grabbed his jacket from the hanger, and opened the door. 

Turki: thank you for keeping me updated with your plans. 

~

It's been 3 hours since he left, and guilt is eating me up. I leave to the airport in 6 more hours and he's no where to be seen. I decided to take a shower, and take my mind off things. 

The shower just made me over think it even more, did I really just make the worst mistake of my life? 

No, Waleed ruined me. I can't be with Turki. He deserves better than me. He deserves someone who is pure just like him. After I finished my shower I went into Turki's room, and opened his closet. 

I took 4 hoodies that smell like him. I will miss him so much; I don't care if he'll know I was the one who took it. I just need to tell him that I love. He deserves to at least know that. 

So I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote everything I felt.

بحقِّ حُبٍّ رائعٍ..
ما زالَ منقوشاً على فمينا
ما زالَ محفوراً على يدينا..
بحقِّ ذكرياتنا..
وحبنا الذي غدا أكبرَ من كلامنا..
بحقِّ أحلى قصةِ للحبِّ في حياتنا..

أسألُكَ الرَحيل.

I left the paper on his nightstand, and went out of the room as fast as I could.

I tried sleeping in my room but I couldn't, so I sat on the couch in the livingroom and tried staying awake. I fell asleep on the couch while trying to wait for him. I was almost in deep sleep when I felt lips on my forehead and Turki's voice whispering:

'Ana a7bk.'

~

I chose a pair of blue jeggings, and Turki's black oversized sweatshirt because the weather was chilly. I wore my sneakers and I didn't wear any accessories except my gold watch, after all I'm going to the airport.. I took my bag, phone, and I was ready to go.

Something just didn't feel right about me leaving to the airport like this. So I went into the kitchen, and took out a bottle of water. I was just about to open the door, when Turki's bedroom door opened.

Turki: Yalla?
Anoud: btw9lni?
Turki: ana 9dg 6lgtik ya 3noud but that doesn't mean ena I stopped loving you, and I never will.

I could feel my heart breaking, and I just wished at that moment that I would die because of it, but no one ever does so I won't.

~

Finally, after hours of traveling I was home. My dad came and picked me up from the airport; he saw the state I was in so he didn't talk to me. The moment I entered the house I ran to my mom and hugged her. I missed her so much, and the minute I felt her arms wrap around me I burst into tears.

It's like a river of tears that just wouldn't stop, and for the life of me I couldn't form understandable sentences.

Johara: 3noudi, mama, 7bebtii.. esh feki? Leeh jayya fj2a? Leeh Turki mo m3k?

At the mention of his name I started crying even louder. 45 minutes later, when I could form a sentence that they can understand I told them what happened.

Anoud: ma-ma.. ana w Turki t6lgna.

To be continued..
xo

Unexpected: Chapter13

Walla eny fkrt as7b min wra elklam ely jals yji w I don't post, bes 3shan ana ensana gd klmti w 3shan elnas elmo7trama 9ra7a.

This chapter is short, adri. All my new chapters are short, adri. Leeh? The story is ending w ma bagi kther events. Elchapters 9ayren y6fshon, leeh kitha? L2na kther mnhm filler chapters  e.x: hlchapter mo mohim bes ena it's a chapter. 

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Previously:

I looked up and Turki had both my hands in his, and he gently spread my palms, and he pressed a kiss on  the inside of my hands. I blushed obviously, but from the inside I was soaring. He brushed his lips against my forehead, and dropped my hands. They felt cold instantly, and I felt a stab to my heart when I realised that all that was an act.

I walked down the streets with millions of shopping bags on my arms. I was dead tired, and so hungry. I just needed to sit down and eat, and it was getting chilly and I needed a jacket to keep me warm.

Noura: haa 3noud mama j3ty?

Anoud: ee wallaa mama mrra. Fe gahwa gdam tben njls feha wla wdk bM63m?

Noura: dam ma bga shy w yji elLeel m63m a7sn, w nklm 3mik w Turki yjon. Bes awl abi njls ana w enti bGahwa.

I nodded, but I felt nervous. Why would my mother in law want to talk to me alone? It's not the first time she does, bes y3ny. I should stop over thinking and looking nervous; this way r7 tshik ena feni shy.


~

A few hours later I was finally home. I was so tired, but I needed fresh air. I couldn't stop thinking about my conversation with 5alty. She's making me doubt everything. I changed into comfortable clothes, and went down the building, and just stood there. After half an hour of sitting alone, and thinking about how my life is going to turn out without Turki. 


(The parts in italics are 3noud remembering what happened in the restaurant.) 

Noura: at4kr lma Turki estw3b ena y7bkk.

I was shocked, his mom knew? 

Anoud: galik? 
Noura: a9ln ma estw3b ela lma ana gltla.
Anoud: shlon? 
Noura: he was 15 at the time, lw eny ay om thanya kan glt bzr esh r7 yfhmh bl7ob w 4al ashya2. Jaa w jls 3ndy on the couch. Knto wgtaha msafren enti w ahlik 3shan 3laj obok. W kan awl mrra tsafron bdona, w 6wlto. 
Anoud: ee at4kr 4eek el4 months. Kano 34aab! Knt mayta aby arj3 3shan Maha. 
Noura: ee, bes kan fe sh59 thani myt ybek trj3en, 5leny akml. Jaa w jls jmbi w 7a6 ras'h on my lap w gali:
Turki: mama mta trj3 3noud?
Noura: mdri 7beby, meta ma 6ab oboha. 
Turki: bt6wl? 
Noura: wallaa, ma ndry. 
Turki: 6yb.
Noura: leh? eshtagtlha?
Turki: ee mama, I miss her.
Noura: mshtaglha wla mshtag t'hbl feha?
Turki: laa mama bdet a7s eni mjnon.
Noura: leeh ya mama?
9ar y7keli hwa esh y7s, w ana 9'7kt. L2na at that moment I knew ena wldi 7ab.
Anoud: bes 5alty e4a kan y7bni leh kan yhbl feni?
Noura: l2na wldi akthr sh59 ma y3rf y3br 3n msha3rh. 
Anoud: la79't..
Noura: ma wgft elsalfa 3la ki4a. Lma kbr w jaa bro7 eljam3a, 9ar lna nfs elklam. Gali la tn56b 3noud, ma ar9'a. Ana 9'7kt, esh bydi aswy lw en56bty? S2lta leeh ma tby 3noud tn56b? Rj3 7kali eli y7s feh w s2lni mrra thanya: am I crazy? w I gave him the simplest answer that summerized everything: no you're in love.

Have I done the right thing by letting him go? Did I lose my happiness by losing him? Am I going to be okay? Can I love someone else?

All those thoughts were interrupted by the sound of footsteps coming next to me. I turned around, and no surprise there it was Turki.

Turki: brd.
Anoud: I can feel that.
Turki: leh mo lbsa?
Anoud: leh yhmk?
Turki: 3noud 3nadk mar7 yfed.

He took out a cigarette from a pack, and put it in his mouth. I gave him a look, that clearly said: again?

Turki: wsho?
Anoud: al7en 5ayf 3ly mn hwa, bes mo 5ayf 3la nfsik min ha4a and it can kill you? God, you're so stupid.

I gave him my back, and started rubbing my arms. He was right, it is cold. I wasn't cold for long though, because he put his jacket on my shoulders. Why does he do these things? He makes it so hard for me to hate him, not that I ever thought that I could.

Anoud: when will you ever quit this addiction?

I finally said something after a few minutes of silence, and I pointed at the cigarette between his lips.

Turki: I'm addicted to you. The minute I realised that you're the one my whole universe was based on you. You changed all my life, and you became my ultimate goal. So please, don't run away with my heart.

The moment I realised what he said; I reacted in such a typical Anoud way. I took out the cigarette from his mouth, and threw it on the ground and stepped on it. I came close to him, and whispered in his ear.

Anoud: then please, stay away from me.

I ran into the apartment, and went into his room. I sat on the couch, and buried my face in between the pillows, how do I run away now? I felt like I was sitting on something, and I looked down and it was a notebook. I knew I probably shouldn't snoop, but I couldn't help myself. I looked through it, and it had writings; in both languages. I've always known that Turki is an artistic guy, but I didn't know he wrote too. A poem titled by name grabbed my attention.

جيت اكتب عنك يا عنود و لكن بعد معاناة بوصفك؟ علمت إنك إنسانة لا توصفي.. علمت بأنك فعلا عنود عندما اريتني عنادك 

الذي جعلني انحني إلى ركبتي من أجلك يا بنت فهد.. أقولها لك و بكل فخر يا عنود انك المرأة الأجمل التي رأيتها في .حياتي.. اخرجي يا شيخة البنات و ليحرسك خالق المستحيلات

I closed the book 3la 6ol. What was I doing to myself? I'm in love with him, why can't I just live with that? I don't deserve him, he deserves much better. 

I changed into my pyjamas, and laid down on the couch. Turki came into the room and went to the bathroom. He showered and put on sweats and a shirt. To distract myself from staring at him, I started reading a book. He put on his glasses, opened his laptop, and started working. Why must he look so good? Why am I thinking this way?

I was almost asleep, when 5alti went into the room, and I panicked. Oh god she saw me sleeping on the couch. She gave me a look, and then went directly to Turki. 

Noura: Turki, fe re7a 3'reba fl3'orfa momkin tji tshof?

~

The next morning I woke up, and found that Turki has made his bed and left already. I had a horrible headache, so I decided to shower. I picked up my towel and stuff, before I went into the bathroom my phone started ringing, so I put down the stuff on the chair, and answered it. 

Anoud: MAHA!

Maha: 3NOUD!

Anoud: keefikk w keef Reemo?

Maha: we're good! Ento kefkm yalga63en?

Anoud: we're good. 

Maha: weenk?

Anoud: apartment? 

Maha: Mommy&Daddy ruined the honeymoon ajwa2?

Anoud: ay honeymoon ajwa2 ya mama 9arlna 2 years mtzawjen!

Maha: 7bebti elajwa2 ma tro7 ya mama, especially blromantic european weather! 

I laughed, and we continued our talking and I went into the bathroom and locked the door behind me. 

I finished my shower, and I started looking for my towel and stuff, but I couldn't find them. Yarabih, esh aswy? I opened the bathroom door, just a crack and I looked into the room. It was empty, good. Yallaa, ymdeni a6l3.

I opened the door and went out; the bedroom door opened and Turki went into the room. I stood there naked as the day I was born, and in front of him. I slapped my hand over my face, and I shut the door with force. I wanted to cry from embarrassment. 

I heard knocks on the door. 

Anoud: n3m?

Turki: 5o4i eltowel wl ashya2 min 3nd elbab. Ana ermm b6l3. 

I thanked him silently, but I still felt like I wanted to cry. I touched my cheeks and they were burning. 

After I was dressed, I went out into the kitchen and started looking for eggs to cook, the minute I closed the fridge's door. I turned around, and hit Turki's chest. I looked down, and blushed even more. He put his fingers under my chin, and lifted my face.

Turki: leh mst7ya mni?

He was whispering against my lips. I felt as if my cheeks were on fire. 

Anoud: 3shan 3eb.

Turki: you're beautiful. Don't ever doubt it.

When he was just about to kiss me, his father went into the kitchen.

To be continued…

xo

Unexpected: Chapter12

There's something you should understand, Anoud w Turki have been married for 2 years now, ok? The first year of their marriage was spent in Saudi, la tnson.

Enjoy!

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Previously:

I don't deserve him, I'm broken and bruised. I'm used and abused. He deserves the best, and I'm the furthest thing from the best. He'll eventually realize that he doesn't want a girl who's used and abused, he doesn't want a sl*t as a wife. No one does, and he's an amazing guy. He deserves the best, and I don't deserve. Adri ena glbi byn7rg w ytg63 3aleh e4a tzwj w7da thanya, bes I can't let him stay with me especially after what happened. 

Turki: mt2akda mn eltbena?

Anoud: more than anything.

Turki: ajl, enti 6alig. 

I couldn't believe that Turki didn't even fight for me, but I guess I brought this on to myself. God, this is it. I'm free from all the chains that bind me to him, why don't I feel good then? Why does it feel worse now? 

Turki: tjek elwrga awl ma trj3en elriya9' enshallah.

He went out of the apartment, and slammed the door after him. I messed up, so much. I know I'll regret this, but he deserves much better.

Turki's P.O.V:

Ana 7mar. Mfro9' ma 6lgt'ha, 7ta lam she asked for it. I shouldn't have given up on her so easily, bed tkrhni. Hya tkrahni! Ana esh aswy? Magdr a3'9bha! Walla lw y6e7 Waleed elklb bydi, a4b7h.

I went into the nearest grocery shop, and I threw a few Euros at the cashier and asked him for a packet of Molboro. I haven't smoked in 3 years, since the day Anoud said yes to marrying me. I've loved her for 28 years, which is all my life, and I would do anything to make her happy. She hated the fact that I smoked, so I quit. For her. But since I don't have her now, then it doesn't matter what I do anymore. 

I lit up a cigarette the minute I had my hands on the packet, and a lighter. I took a drag of it, and exhaled slowly. I missed it, I miss how much comfort and relaxation it gave me. I was enjoying my smoke, when my phone started ringing. It was Maha, weird. What did she want?

Turki: alo?
Maha: ahlan bliii ga63 e5taaa wla yklmha. Zojtik a54tik mnii! 

I laughed, and shook my head. No matter how old my sister gets; not including the fact that she's a mom to a one year old now, she'll still act like my baby sister.

Turki: how old are you? 
Maha: E5, I'm 24 now. T5yl? 
Turki: How's Reemyy? 

Maha: tslm 3la 5alhaa! 

Turki: I miss her so much.

Maha: and her mom. Ezibda esm3 ma dget 3lek 3shan tgoli gd esh u miss me and my baby I already know that u do. 

Turki: ajl wsh 3ndik yalth8h?

Maha: mdri, fj2a w ana g3da 7set fe shy 3'l6, bes mdri.. Are u guys ok?

I was shocked, how did Maha know? I was almost certain Anoud didn't tell her anything, that's so weird. I cleared my throat when I realised she was starting to doubt me and started to answer.

Turki: hw ee we're fine!
Maha: akeed?
Turki: ee mahoy.
Maha: ail why are u smoking? 
Turki: besmallah.. L2ni m9'3'o6. 5la9 Maha aklmik b3den.

After my call with Maha ended; I decided I won't give up on Anoud so easily. I'll get her back, step by step so I went over to the flower shop, and bought Anoud's favourite flowers and put them in a bouquet. I also stopped by a Chinese take-out place, and bought dinner. I knew she'd be hungry and exhausted so maybe this will help her. I know it'll take a lot of time to get her back, but I'll do it even if my life depended on it.

~

It's been 2 weeks since I 'divorced' Anoud. Nothing changed in our lives much; except the fact that we're both very quiet now. We even spend most of our time in the apartment. Anoud's phone started ringing, and by now I know who it is. It was Reema pleading her to go out, but Anoud wouldn't go. She was always depressed and sad; the only places she went to were her work place and the university.

She threw her phone on the couch, and went into the room. I did something that I might regret later, but she needs it and I would never forgive myself if she stayed in this state. She may not want my help or entertainment but she needs a friend right now. So I called Reema, and asked her to come over. A few minutes later, the doorbell rang. I opened it, and smiled at Reema. I thanked her for coming and went to call Anoud. 

Knock knock..

Turki: 3noud, eft7i elbab?
Anoud: esh tb3'a?
Turki: fe a7d 3nd elbab lk.

Anoud went out and saw Reema, I decided to leave them alone.

Turki: yallah, ana bro7 e4a b3'eto shay gololi.

I gave them a quick smile and went out, now I can relax. I walked around the wet streets of Munich thinking about how can I win Anoud back? I don't want us to live this way. At all. I need her, I need to have her in my life,  but I have no idea how. 

I lit up a cigarette and dragged slowly, I don't find the relaxation I want in cigarettes anymore. It's like Anoud became my smoke; she became my drug, my painkiller and my pain. I was wondering off, when my phone started ringing. The caller ID said Mom, why would my mom be calling?

Turki: hala bSit el7bayb!
Noura: hala bli mb bar bWaldenah.
Turki: afaa! Ana mo bar yoma?
Noura: ee 6b3n! Al7en m3gola 9arlkm a year bMunich wla jeto zrtona wla mrra? 
Turki: asfen yal3'alya bes tdren elderasa wlsh3'l mo sahlen.
Noura: ma 3lena mnik, bnti kefha?
Turki: meen? 
Noura: 3noud! Hw shfek nset zojtik?
Turki: laaa 6b3n bes shket, el7amdellah yoma 6ayba. Tslm 3lekm!
Noura: jmbik hee al7en, aklmha?
Turki: laa walla mama hy blshiga w ana 6al3..
Noura: tarik zojtik l7alha?
Turki: laa m3ha 9degt'haa.
Noura: ee kwys, 6b esm3!
Turki: smi?
Noura: Ana w obok jayen bokra.
Turki: haa? keef?
Noura: ana w obok bn6l3 elm6ar b3d shwy w r7ltna to9al el9b7! Kna bnsaweha lkm mofaj2a bes ana glt ma y9eer. 

I laughed a nervous laugh. Oh god, could my parents pick a worse timing? 

Turki: eee btnwron.

~

I went into the apartment with a shocked face, esh nswy al7en?

Turki: 3noud! 3noudi! Weenik? 

I waited for her to reply, and 3 minutes later she came out of her room. Looks like she just came out of the shower. I saw her, and for a few minutes I couldn't talk. She looked normal, and happy. She looked like the girl I fell in love with, and when I saw her I forgot how to speak. She is just so beautiful.

Anoud's P.O.V:

Why is he staring? Can't he see how awkward it's making me feel? Yarb he stops. 

Anoud: ugh, Turki b3'et shay?
Turki: hmmm…
Anoud: Turki!! Knt tb3'a shay?
Turki: ee! 
Anoud: esh?
Turki: my parents are coming tomorrow.
Anoud: this can not be happening! A5yas min ki4a watt? Mafe! 

I covered my face with my hands, and I almost cried. Why now? We just got divorced. Now I have to sleep in the same room as him, ya allah. This is such a horrible time. 

Turki: let's get started.

By 1 AM we have moved all my stuff, and I was just laying there. A long long week was going to be ahead of us. 

Turki: allaah y3een.

~

I came home from uni, and I was dead tired, but my in laws are here! So I had to suck it up. The minute I saw 5alty; I hugged her so tight, and tears clouded my vision. 

Noura: 7bebty 3noud wallaa allah y3lm gd esh shtgtlk! 
Anoud: mamaaa noura!

I was in tears, for some reason I just realised how homesick I am. I kissed her forehead and hand, and did the same to 3mi Khalid. We sat together and chatted for a while, after lunch 5alty wanted to go shopping. So I went inside the room and picked out what I wanted to wear. I wanted something comfy, so I chose a pair of skinny nudish/pinkish pants and I paired it with Turki's loose denim button-down shirt and I tied it from the bottom. I slipped on my beige espadrilles, grabbed my sunglasses and my bag.

Anoud: yalla, mama? 

She smiled at me and lifted one finger k2na she was saying eno wait. I was distractedly playing with my wedding ring, when my hands were grabbed by very familiar male ones. I looked up and Turki had both my hands in his, and he gently spread my palms, and he pressed a kiss on  the inside of my hands. I blushed obviously, but from the inside I was soaring. He brushed his lips against my forehead, and dropped my hands. They felt cold instantly, and I felt a stab to my heart when I realised that all that was an act.

To be continued…
xo