Fate 2.0: Part2

I missed writing, and this story so so much.

I hope you like it!

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Previously:

A few more hours later, the doctor went out of the delivery room, and asked Faisal the most painful question anyone could be asked.

"I'm sorry, bes ent m9'6ar t5tar ben zojtik w wldk. L2n ma n8dar nn8i4 elthnen." 

All Faisal could think about was, Maha would never forgive me for this choice but I can't pick a baby over her. I can't live knowing that I was the reason she lost her life, we can always have another baby, but when will I ever find  someone like Maha?

After long and deep thinking, Faisal made his choice. He was picking his wife, so he nodded absent-mindedly to the doctor and said loudly with finality;

Faisal: zojti, bes e4a fe shy momkin tswonah w ma y7rmni mn wldi wla zojti ra7 akon mamnon lkom 6ol 3omri.

Faisal kept his hopes high, and prayed to god nonstop. He hoped with all his heart and soul that he won't have to lose any of the people who he considers the centre of his universe. He turned to Anoud&Maha's mother.

Faisal: 5alti? 3noud? E4a entom thnenatkom hena, Reemi 3nd meen?

Anoud: don't worry, I called Turki to pick her up from school w he's dropping her off at your mom's. 

Faisal: oh shokran, mfro9' s2lt mn awl bes bali kan msh3'ol.

Noura(Maha's mom): 3la 6ari, ma kan 3ndkom mw3d enty w Turki elyom?

Anoud blushed at that question and made a gesture with her head as if to point out that Faisal was still there, but there was no need since Faisal basically knew everything. 

Flashback:

Faisal and Maha were laying down on the couch, with Reem playing with her dolls on the carpet. Faisal was absent-mindedly rubbing Maha's bump while he was extremely focused on the show he was watching. 

Maha: t9dg Faisal, mrra ra7ma 3anoud w Turki.

Faisal: leeh tr7menhom 7bebti?

Maha: they've trying to get pregnant for a while now w lsa wla shy.

Faisal: hw 6be3i 7bebti twhom.

Maha: la mo twhom, yarb ena ana 7mlt bReemi on our honeymoon. Hom 9arlhom akthr mn sb3 sh'hor w they've been trying. Believe me, they've been trying a lot w ma nf3 shy.

Faisal laughed loudly at Maha's horrified facial expression. 

Faisal: enti esh d5lk b7yatk o5ok mn ha4e elnwa7e?

Maha: mo elmo9eba ena o5oy tzwj my bestfriend ma ynfa3 a5bi 3nha shy.

Faisal: alzm ma 3ly enk ma tgolen l5wati 3n asrarna!

Maha: wsh 3lek a9ln jals'h a36ehom n9ay7.

Faisal: 3la 3noud w Turki mafe ela enhom yshofon doctor..

Maha: shkla ki4aa. 

End of flashback.

Faisal paced back and forth for a couple more hours, dreading the news that he was going to hear. The couple of hours turned into 4. It doesn't feel right, why are they taking so long? When he was a few minutes closer to going insane, the doctor came out of the room with the most exhausted expression Faisal has ever seen.

Doctor: abshrk, gdrna nn8e4hom elthnen, m3 4alk zojtik f8dt dam kther fa t7taj trta7 elftra. 

Faisal nodded frantically, He needed to see her and his baby. 

Faisal: Doctor, momkin ashof Maha awl?

The doctor nodded with a small smile, and lead him to where his wife was resting. His face relaxed into a smile the minute he saw his wife laying peacefully in that bed. His overworking heart relaxed into a steady rhythm. He was brought back to reality when he heard the click of a closing door.

He went and sat next to her and held her hand. He prayed to god, that he keeps her alive; not only for him but for their kids too.

Maha: hmmm, Faisal? 

Faisal: 3yoni? 

Maha: shfta? 

Faisal: lsa, knt ant9'rk.. 

Maha: abeh Faisal, abe ashofa! 

She put her hand on her now nearly flat stomach, and winced in pain. 

Faisal: lma y5f elalm nro7la bl3naya.

Maha: leeh 7a6ena bl3naya? Reemi enwldt w heya a93'ar w ma 76oha bl3naya! 

Faisal: yeah, bes nab9'ah 9'3eef shwy.. La t5afen, bykon a7sn enshallah! Klshay bykon a7sn. 

Without being able to stop himself, a few tears escaped from Faisal's eyes and they dropped on Maha's hand. 

Maha: hw Faisal shfeek? 

Faisal: no more babies, mn 3'er shar. 

Maha: I'm fine. 

Faisal: you weren't fine, 5loni a5tar Maha! T3rfen wah m3nat 5loni a5tar? Mab3'a amir bHa4a elsh3or mrra thanya fe 7yati. 

Maha: 5laa9 e7na al7in kwysen, la t5af. 

A few hours later, after everyone left to go back home and rest. Maha turned to Faisal, and begged him that they go see their baby. He nodded hesitantly, and reached out for her hand. Maha put on her 3baa, and they started walking slowly to the nursery. The minute they reached the nursery and entered, they asked for their baby. 

The nurse lead them to another room, and asked them to wear gloves, shoe covers and some hairnets. They saw a tiny creature in a cubicle surrounded by machines everywhere. Both Maha and Faisal felt as if their hearts were constricting. 

Maha: ya glb omik enta, 7bebii..

Maha couldn't stop the tears that were streaming down her cheeks, that baby boy is a part of her. He's a piece of her heart and she prays to god she doesn't lose him. Faisal rubbed her back gently, and squeezed on her arm. 

Faisal: he'll be fine, la t5afen. 

Maha: esh nsameh?

Faisal: eli tben I'm up for it. 

Maha: allah y7f9'k, besmellaah.

Kmlt Maha, td3i for her son. 

xo 

Fate 2.0: Part1

This is like a mini-seqeul for Maha&Faisal.

Enjoy!

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"Reem! You have 2 minutes to come down, or I'm leaving without you!"

My husband shouted from downstairs. I tied her little pigtails quickly, and pushed her gently to go down.

Maha: yallaa! Wla baba byro7 bdonik.
Reem: mommy, why are you not taking me to school?
Maha: mommy is tired 7bebi, I can't go to school with you.

Then her face went into an adorable pout, and she crossed her arms.

Maha: baba bya54ik, ana ajebk b3den, yalla! Smile, baby.
Reem: mama! Can you come take me from school with the baby? I told all my friends that my mom has a baby inside but they don't believe me.
Maha: m3lesh mama, the baby is not ready to come yet. He needs a week or two more. 
Reem: he's taking so long! 
Maha: it's okay, a few more weeks won't hurt.

She kissed the hand that was holding hers and my baby bump, we went down the stairs. Faisal took her bag from me, and then he leaned in to kiss me, but I turned at the last minute so he only got to kiss my cheek. I was still angry after our fight last night.

Faisal: Maha..
Maha: rou7, btt25r Reem 3n elmdrsa.
Faisal: Mahawi, lw sm7te..
Maha: 5la9 Faisal, mo wgta al7en wla ana ly 5lg.
Reem: bye mommy! Love you.
Faisal: yalla m3 elsalama 7bebti, entbhi 3la nfsk.

I blew a kiss to my daughter, because my 9 month pregnant bump wouldn't allow me to bend down properly, the minute I looked up and saw Faisal staring at me I dropped my smile. Mean? I know I wanted him to feel a bit more guilty before I let it go.

I wasn't as angry as I was pretending to be, but I needed him to feel guilty. He was asking me to stop working and I was never agreeing to that. I started feeling light, yet very painful cramps. Oh crap.

It's okay, it's all okay. I went up stairs to my room and packed my bag slowly, even though I was trying to be so calm the cramps were only minutes apart, and I don't think this is what's supposed to happen.

I took deep and slow breaths to calm myself down and to ease the pain. As I rubbed my stomach in soft circular motions, I speed dialled Anoud. She was the one to most likely not panic, plus she took this week off so she doesn't have work.

Maha: alo, shhhhhh..

I winced in pain while talking, but I tried as much as I can not to show it.

Anoud: MAHA! Esh feek?

Maha: cra-sh*t- mps.

Anoud: cramps? Mo contractions?

Maha: would I be wrong about this?

Anoud: wein Faisal?

Maha: twa mn 10 dgayg 6al3 hwa w- my god this isn't supposed to hurt like this.

Anoud: ana bl6reg, don't move! 

Maha: 3noud! 

I was about to scream blue murder at her, but thankfully she hung up on me. As more time passed, the cramps only got worse. I'm going to call Faisal, I don't care how mad I'm supposed to be at him I don't think the pain I'm going through is normal.

I punched in his number, and waited for him to answer and as usual I didn't wait for long. 

Faisal: babe?

Maha: Fai-aaaahhhh..

Faisal: shfeek?

You could hear the panic in his voice, and I was kind of regretting calling him because well he's driving. 

Maha: just, please please please come home. 

I paced through the house while taking long deep breaths. The maids were standing on one side watching out carefully for me, and not even 5 full minutes since I hung up on him Faisal came back. Before I could run up to him, my water broke. I looked down in panic, only to see that a little blood got mixed in too. I felt as if my heart was being squeezed by a force I can't push away; I can't lose this baby. I need to have this baby, not only for me but for my husband, and my daughter. 

Faisal: MAHA! Yalla goumi 7bebti nro7 elmstashfa.

I nodded and walked slowly to the door while one of the maids rushed to get me my 3baya. I took deep fast breaths, and started rubbing my stomach in circles. In one way, I was trying to do it to calm myself down but in another I was trying to make sure that my baby is still there. It was an extremely painful car ride, but Faisal had the radio 3la el8uraan and he held my hand all the while. He rushed me into the emergency section in a wheelchair, and started  shouting for the nearest nurse to come and help. 

Nurse: yes, sir? What is the problem?

Faisal: my wife is having a baby.

Nurse: it's ok, sir. It usually takes a while before the baby comes out. 

Faisal: you're not understanding me, my wife is having a baby and she's bleeding! She's not having contractions she's having cramps. I want a doctor to come see her, now!

Nurse: ok, sir. I will call the doctor now, you come with me to the delivery room. 

I swear I could feel Faisal's forced smile, and I could only imagine how intimidating he looked. Especially with his height and built. 

Faisal: thank you.

Three hours later I was laying on a bed soaked in blood; even after they gave 2 blood bags I was still losing more blood than I should. I was hanging on the last thread of patience that I had, and I was latched on my husband's hand. 

Doctor: Mr.Alx your wife's situation is getting more dangerous, we have to get her into surgery right now, because the baby's heartbeat is becoming weaker. 

Faisal looked at me for reassurance on what to do, and I nodded weakly. I was becoming extremely tired, and it wasn't because of the pain but because of the blood loss. I want that baby more than anything, and I'm willing to do whatever has to be done in order to keep it. Faisal kissed my forehead and hand, and read shwayat 8uraan. 

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They took Maha into surgery and left Faisal with his stressful thoughts, but not for long because he was joined by Anoud and Maha's mother. He couldn't stop pacing, his heart was in that surgery room with the love of his life who he might lose any second now. He ran his hand through his hair for what might be the millionth time, and those dark thoughts started pushing into his overthinking mind. 

You're the reason she's in there now.

You wanted another baby.

You'll lose your wife because of your selfish decisions. 

You're the one behind all this pain.


A few more hours later, the doctor went out of the delivery room, and asked Faisal the most painful question anyone could be asked.

"I'm sorry, bes ent m9'6ar t5tar ben zojtik w wldk. L2n ma n8dar nn8i4 elthnen." 



xo

Fate: Chapter20 (FINALE)

Hi, I can't believe it.

The story has come to an end :( I'm in tears right now. I got so attached to the characters and everything. I fell in love with Faisal and Maha more everyday, m3 eno basically I was controlling what they did. I owe this blog a lot of things even though I had days when I hated it, and I just wanted to delete it and stop, I couldn't do it to you guys. You were the reason I kept going with this story. This blog gave me a chance to meet a lot of great people who made their way into my life. So thank you to everyone for the support, I really feel good about this. Even though I'm starting another story soon which I'm not going to post 3la 6ol tra, I felt like saying all that.

I hope you really like this.

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He woke up and found me staring him. He looked tired, but much better.

Faisal: esh 9ar?
Maha: you fainted.
Faisal: 9ar fek shy? Did I lose control of the car? Keef elbaby?
Maha: ma mdak you lose control of the car, w ana I'm fine. Shuf, I even look good in 2 day old make-up,  and a wrinkled dress.
Faisal: You always look beautiful, w daymn a7s you're too pretty for me. Leeh o3'ma 3ly?
Maha: ma9il, la tet6anz. Why didn't you tell me ena one of your wounds was still fresh?
Faisal: bes I got stitches.
Maha: yaraby mnik! Emergency stitches by someone who's not a professional is not stitches.
Faisal: so why did I faint?
Maha: 3shan your wound enft7 w it started bleeding bes ma 7sena w while driving you lost too much blood, and fainted.

I sighed, and relaxed against the chair. He was finally awake, god I was so worried.

Faisal: ween nmty?
Maha: hina?
Faisal: blkrsy?
Maha: ee..
Faisal: for 2 days?

I nodded; I still couldn't see what was bothering him.

Faisal: Maha, enty 7amil. You can't do stuff like this anymore!
Maha: Faisal, ma sawet shy!
Faisal: w g3dtik hina esh tsamenha? Nayma yomen 3la krsy plastic mo mre7, akeed enti wlbaby en9'reto!
Maha: FAISAL! Lw enshallah naymh bsrer farsh'h 7rer mar7 anam bRa7a damik t3ban!
Faisal: ely saweteh 3'l6!
Maha: ent sami3 esh jals tgol?
Faisal: ee, ely saweteh 3'l6 w la t3edeenh mra thanya.

I stormed out of his room, very angrily. Why would he ever say something like that? Can't he see that I was worried sick about him? Why would he do this to me?!

I got home showered, and changed into sweats and Faisal's hoodie. It was mid February and Riya9' was freezing. I was too pissed off at Faisal bes I had to go to the hospital, but I wanted to take as much time as I can so he would miss me shwy.

Maha: Ra7eem pls ro7 beet baba awl.

I suddenly felt like seeing omy w oboy. I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but I was more angry than Faisal than I should be. He has to understand eno I did what I did bcuz I was worried, I didn't mean it in a selfish way.

Awl ma d5lt elbeet omy gave me a look, what now?

Noura: Maha?
Maha: hala mama.
Noura: hala feek 7bbty, bes esh jaybik hina?
Maha: jaya azorkm.
Noura: w Faisal blmstashfa?
Maha: w e4a?
Noura: la tswen nafsik ena ma yhmik, adry enik mayta tben tro7en.

My mom knew me too well. I was about to answer her when:

Khalid: oho mahoy zyrtna elyom. Shlonik baba?
Maha: el7amdelilah baba I'm ok.
Khalid: w keef Faisal? 6l3oh?
Maha: la2 not yet.
Khalid: wrak 3ndina 6yb?
Maha: jeet 3shan bgolikm shy.
Noura: hw smellah 3lek shfek?
Maha: baba ejlis 3shan agolkm.
Noura: shy mo kwys?
Maha: laa laa kwys el7amdelilah.

I took a deep breath, Faisal was supposed to do this with me, but I had to tell them something so they wouldn't doubt that something is wrong.

Maha: ana 7amil.

I looked down and I saw how happy my parents looked and I felt so much better. At first I was worried that they'd think that I was too rushed, and it was really embarrassing to tell your parents that you got knocked up on your honeymoon.

Noura: allaaaah! Ya 7lwik! Km mar 3lek?
Maha: bd5il elthalith b3d esbo3een.

I blushed when my dad and mom laughed. Ew, yarb they're not thinking what I'm thinking. Fj2a oboy gam, and I gave him a look.

Khalid: omik 6rdtny. Yalla 7bebty ana bro7. 3lbarakah enshallah.
Maha: allaah ybarik fek baba.

He kissed my forehead, and just as he was about to leave, my mom cleared her throat. He laughed and kissed her forehead too. They're so adorable, enshallah ana w Faisal bnkon zyhm even after 30 years of marriage and having 4 children.

Noura: yalla golely, shlon?
Maha: shlon esh?
Noura: shlon 7mlty?
Maha: we3 mama bes mo lazm agolik shlon. You know how.
Noura: laa ya 3'byaa, g9dy enty ma5tha 7bob, shlon?
Maha: ee s2alt eldiktora galtly eny a5thtaha w ana 3ly elperiod fa ma eshta3'lt.
Noura: ahaa. Ee w golely esh jaybik 3ndna w zojik blmstashfa?

I told her what happened, and when I was done I was in tears and she started laughing.

Maha: hw mama shlon t9'7ken 3ly? Ha4a jzay jya bshkelik! MAMA!
Noura: asfa bes y3ny mnjidkm ento?
Maha: mama t7sbeny jlsa astahbil mthln?
Noura: walla enkm mhabel! Al7een how could you not see that he was worried?
Maha: mama! Minjedah?
Noura: ok mo enty glty ena he might not be able to have anymore children?
Maha: ee?
Noura: 6be3y bymot 5of 3la ha4a ely bBa6nik! L2na ymkin ma ykon 3indkm wa7ed thany!
Maha: 6b al7en esh asawy?
Noura: tra9'enh!
Maha: ma ystahil.
Noura: al7een 7beeb elglb ely klmteh min wrana, w jlsty sana mkt2ba 3shanh m5tfi 9ar ma ystahil?
Maha: esh drak eny knt aklmh?
Noura: ana omik w enty bnty elwa7eda, b3den enty w 3noud are really horrible at keeping secrets.
Maha: what else do you know?
Noura: everything.
Maha: everything, everything?
Noura: yes.
Maha: how did you let me go along with it?
Noura: oh I punished you for some things bes ma knty tdren.
Maha: wallaa mama enik t5wfen.
Noura: ma 3lena, bes ro7y ra9'eh.
Maha: shlon?
Noura: well awl shy, la t36enh wajh. Ez3ly w la t7akenh w e4a rj3o ahlh elbeet nzly km dam3a w golelh ena ma kan 89dik bes enty knty 5ayfa 3leh.

I took my mom's advice and went to the hospital, and when I got to his room the door was cracked open shwy. I could hear him and Dalal (his aunt and sister) talking.

Dalal: ween Maha?
Faisal: ra7t.
Dalal: hw g3dt yomeen naymh blkrsi ely jambik al7een yom gmt ra7t?
Faisal: ee.
Dalal: ma tsaweha Mahoy.
Faisal: leeh ma tsaweha?
Dalal: ent 3arif esh ma3nat t7bik?
Faisal: ana b3d a7bha.
Dalal: laa ent tetnafs'ha w t7ib elar9' ely hee tmshe 3aleha. Fa mas2alt ena ithnainkm z3lanen w b3eden 3n b39' y3ny elsalfa kbeerh.

Then Faisal told her everything.

Dalal: Faisal ent 3'aby?
Faisal: ana esh?
Dalal: 3'aby! Ha4a shay yngal lWa7da 7amil w zojha 9arla 6aye7 yomeen blmstashfa? Mdri shlon tfker ent. Esh el3'ba2 ha4a? Ween elromanciya ely yom enik tklmha?
Faisal: esh darak eny knt aklmha?

What? Was our relationship that obvious?

Dalal: tstahbil 9a7? Kl a7d kan ydry, ana omik 5watik obok. You really sucked at hiding it.
Faisal: ilmohim esh aswy ana? Adry eny sawet mu9eba bes y3ny s3deny!
Dalal: ra9'eha.
Faisal: shlon?
Dalal: zojtik w ent adra.

I knocked the door and entered the room.

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4 months later I was sitting on the couch in our apartment and I had a jar of peanut butter open and bananas. I was waiting for Faisal to come back home from work, and I was getting really bored.

My phone started to ring, and it was Anoud.

Maha: hala!
Anoud: ahleen, haa wldty?
Maha: lw eny wldt kan mo jalsa akalmek b3den tawna bdry!
Anoud: walla a7s kna 9arlik sana 7amil. Yalla 3ad jeby baby 3noud.
Maha: 3la keefik esmha 3noud? A9ln meen gal enha bint?
Anoud: Mahoy bla s5afa,  golely bint wla wld?
Maha: surprise.
Anoud: leeh surprise 6yb?
Maha: keefy! My baby, my pregnancy and I get to pick what to do!
Anoud: lma ana a7mal bswy fek nfs elshay.
Maha: la tst3jlen zye bes, twkm raj3en min elhoneymoon.
Anoud: a9ln ana b5l9 my studies awl.
Maha: ee 9a7 meta btro7on Germany?
Anoud: fe Semptember enshallah.
Maha: zeen y3ny enshallah btoknen fe 3la elwelada!
Anoud: ee enshalllah! Marra mt7amsa.
Maha: haa did Ghada pop the kid yet?

So a lot has went on in our lives, I'm 7 months along in my pregnancy w Ghada bltasi3. Anoud w Turki had their wedding and milka on the same day 2 months ago and they just came back from their honeymoon. They'll leave to study in Germany in a few months. Everything is going really well.

Anoud: aloo Mahoy aklmik!
Maha: huh? Ee..
Anoud: ween sr7ty?
Maha: Jalsa afaker gd esh t3'yrt our lives in the past 4 months. I'm pregnant w you're married now; Faisal has a stable job, and I'm CEO for a big company.
Anoud: yaa modeeraa! Sexyy!

I laughed at Anoud's thinking, I don't think my bestfriend will ever grow up.

Maha: speaking of which this CEO needs to go peepee.
Anoud: peepee? Really? What are you 5?
Maha: ana w Faisal jalsen n7awl ntklm politely 3shan lma yjy elbaby we don't say much bad words.
Anoud: oh really? 6yb esh tgolo when you're 'doing it'
Maha: ew malik d5l. Go away I have to peepee now.

Later that night while we were in bed, we were discussing names.

Faisal: Dana?
Maha: ee big option. What about Maram?
Faisal: mo marra 9'ab6. 6yb Lama?
Maha: mra 7ilo!
Faisal: ee.
Maha: tdry 7ata Lamia 7ilo!
Faisal: ee wallah 9adga. Bes wdy eb Reem aw Lama.
Maha: leeh?
Faisal: 3shan 3ndy elmaha fa walla lw tjy bnty rb3 jamlha tstahel esm el3'azal.
Maha: I love you.
Faisal: goleha mra thanya!
Maha: hahaha wallaa eny a7sik bzr sometimes, a7bik.
Faisal: ma 3omry ra7 a6fsh min eny asm3 hlkilma, 7ta lw enik tgolenha klyom.
Maha: yaa 7ebik ll3yarh. Ok 3bdulra7man lw wld?

Even we didn't know what we were having.

Faisal: ee 3bdulra7man 7ilu.
Maha: tby nsamy mit3eb?
Faisal: laa.
Maha: leeh?
Faisal: 3shan if this is our last kid, mab3'a ykon unfair to your dad 3shan ma samena 3aleh.

Very big 'aww' moment. I love this guy. After a while of discussing names we finally had options. Faisal kissed my forehead and my baby bump.

Faisal: I love you two.

I woke up at the middle of the night from horrifying pain in my stomach, and it hit me that I was having the baby NOW!

Maha: Faisal! Faisal 7beby gom!
Faisal: huh esh fek?
Maha: bwld. AL7EEN!

We went to the hospital and after being in labor for 3 hours the doctor decided to operate an emergency C-section. I got worried, and then I started panicking a bit. Faisal made me feel much better, and I thank god every day for giving him to me.

Maha: I'll be ok. Yalla la t5af marra ok?
Faisal: a7bik tra.
Maha: ana b3d a7bik akthr.


Hours later, baby Alreem was born. A healthy tiny little baby girl, and I've never been more exhausted but seeing her beautiful red face made it all worth it.

xo

Fate: Chapter19

There are only 1 chapter left to this story</3. I really appreciate all the feedback I've been getting. I know it's not long ( although it's 1000 words), bes I devided the events into 2 chapters 3shan t5al9 elstory b20 chapters.

P.S:

There's a change of P.O.V bN9 elchapter fa la t7oson ;p

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Well, that was not expected. At all.

Maha: what? Leh? Esh 9ar?
Faisal: I had an accident and that made me lose the ability to have kids.
Maha: what happened? Tell me. I don't mind, really.
Faisal: ok, so at first it was a normal invasion. Then the beating started, a few kicks here and there and then one guy gave me a low blow.
Maha: ouch. That was it?
Faisal: esh gaylenlik? Mtzwja bzr?
Maha: ok ok yalla kamil.
Faisal: b3den we went out, and I was driving then we had a car crash.
Maha: why do you say these things kna ma 9arlik shy?
Faisal: bcuz compared to other things, ha4a wla shy.
Maha: go on, what happened blcar crash?

Of course, everything he told me about felt like a stab to my chest. He went through a lot of things like that in the past 5 years, so now whenever he talks about it; it feels like it's a normal thing to happen to him. He never shows how much pain he's in, even when we talked about the scars and the torturing he went through the past year. I get goosebumps whenever I remember what he told me, and the scars I see on his chest and back are a daily reminder.

Faisal: bes a car crashed into the one I was driving from my side, and well it broke a few ribs and did that.
Maha: when did that happen?
Faisal: a week after I got there.
Maha: why don't you ever tell me what happens?
Faisal: so you don't worry. You already worry enough.

I know how much it hurt him that we might not be having more children, but I didn't want him to feel guilty about it. I know that he'd take responsibility for it, and I thank god that I got pregnant earlier.

Maha: 3ady a9ln for now we'll have one kid, w b3den ngdr n3alij. Akeed fe 7al. Don't worry 7beby.
Faisal: walla w 9ayra romantic Mahoy 7beby w 7rkat, esh el6ary?

I laughed and hit him with a pillow.

Maha: osh bes, yallah 5leny anam wray dwam bokra.
Faisal: darya eny mar7 a5lek tsht3'len?
Maha: what, leh?
Faisal: 3shanik 7amel.
Maha: Faisal bla s5afa.
Faisal: minjdy!!
Maha: ok we'll discuss this later when I'm not half asleep.
Faisal: how did you sleep without me for 2 months?
Maha: the same way I've been sleeping without you for the past 22 years, a7i6 rasy w anam.

I heard him laugh and then say something about me not being romantic, at all. I was too far gone to focus on what he was saying.

Faisal's P.O.V:

I watched her sleep, and I started thinking about everything. My father was right, I have a kid now working m3 elmba7eth won't be as easy. Kther mn elmba7eth 3ind'hm 3wa2el w mashya omorhm?

Faisal: Mahoy?
Maha: hmm..
Faisal: tetw83en I should quit my job now?
Maha: laa..
Faisal: walla? Bes enty-
Maha: oshhh Faisal bnaam.

She put her hand on my mouth to shut me up, and she fell asleep. When I was sure she was in deep sleep I removed her hand from my mouth.

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We were going to my grandparents' house 3shan 3zema mswya ly, w ana jalis ant9'r Maha t5al9. My parents left 2 hours ago, I swear this woman will eventually kill me.

We have spent the past 2 hours in a hormonal mess. We went through 7 dresses, apparently everything made her look fat. She was barely showing! I really wished my sisters were home so they could suffer with this instead of me. I thought she looked beautiful in everything, but of course she wouldn't believe me. She said that I'm her husband I'm supposed to say that, but it was true!

Dress 1: 
She had on a pretty short purple dress that made her look really pretty, and fit her nicely.

Maha: nop ma agdr albes 4aa it's too short a5af your grandfather y4b7ny.

Dress 2: 
This dress was gold and it was longer than that one, but it was sleeveless.

Maha: we3 it shows the fat part of my arms.

Dress 3:
That one was pretty green color that showed off her tan, and matched perfectly the ring I got her. It tightened a bit in the stomach area, but I thought it was more than perfect, but Maha had other thoughts.

Maha: shof! It shows my baby bump.

Dress 4, 5, and 6:

Makes me look fat.
Too short.
Too sl*tty.
I don't have any shoes that match. (She has a closet for shoes, only.)

Dress 7:
It was a long white dress with a gold belt, I'm not good at describing clothes but it was a bit open from the back, and it didn't have a very wide chest opening.  She looked more than beautiful in that one, and I was not letting her change it.

Faisal: laa Maha wla t3'yren hlmarra.
Maha: bes!
Faisal: wla kilma! You look gorgeous, stunning, beautiful, and perfect. Yallah let's go.
Maha: bes sh3ry!
Faisal: 10 mins lw ma knty labsa 3baytik, I'm leaving you.

20 minutes later we were sitting in the car, and I had turned on the radio wl o3'niya ely ahdet'ha lha yom 56btna was on.

Faisal: do you remember?
Maha: shft el7yat bshoftik w 9'i7aktly tbdlt dnyay min hm lAfra7.

After the song was done, Maha talked about what were both worrying about.

Maha: kef bngolhm?
Faisal: ngolhm 3n el7amil w na8ely elyom, bes elmaw9'o3 elthani a7s a7sn lw bes darw 3nh ahli.
Maha: ee maby every family member ydry.
Faisal: ee a7sn lw 5lenah sr.
Maha: ok so mita ngolhm?
Faisal: b3d el3sha?
Maha: t7s omik w obok byz3lon l2nena ma glnalhm awl?
Faisal: tetw83en mafro9' glna elOur parents awl?
Maha: a7s a7sn lw we did.
Faisal: 5la9 bokrah lma nro7 nshof your parents ngolhm wl 9b7 ngol lAhli.
Maha: 6b elyom bes bngolhm 3an elna8il?
Faisal: ee 7beb-

Then everything went black.

xo 

Fate: Chapter18

Ok honestly I lost all excitement to post, and writing. It's like barely anyone reads the blog anymore there is very little feedback, so I'm doubting  posting the second story. It's a good thing that this one is ending then.

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My cramps got worse and the vomiting wouldn't stop but I didn't want to go to a doctor. Today is wednesday and I'm at my parents' for dinner, and I vomited 3 times in the past 2 hours.

Noura: Maha 7bebty ro7y 3ind eldr.

Maha: laa maby mama, ana mafeny ela el3afyah bes t3b ma gbl elperiod.

I reassured my mom, and she looked at me one more time and left. 

Anoud: Mahoy, mfro9' you got your period 2 weeks ago.

Oh cr*p.

Anoud: arsl R7eem el9eidaliya?

Maha: No! Ya ana aro7 ya enty.

Anoud: ok ok. Lazim njeb akthr min wa7d.

Maha: y3ny km?

Anoud: 3 or 6.

Maha: 6?!

Anoud: we want to be sure. 9dgeny, even if you do 6 tests you still have to go to the doctor's. 

I looked at Ghada sitting bl9alh and her small baby bump, and how she rubbed it almost always. I don't know if I'm ready for that.

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40 minutes later I was sitting cross legged in my en-suite bathroom at mine&Faisal's apartment in his parents' house. I had 10, yes 10, pregnancy tests in front of me and Anoud sitting beside me. Now, all I have to do is actually pee on them.

Maha: do I really want to find out?

Anoud: do you want to pretend like you don't know?

Maha: but, but, but..

I was scared; I mean I'm a soldier's wife which basically makes me a single mom. I know Faisal requested a transfer, but it doesn't look like it's happening any time soon. Also, it doesn't help that I just turned 22, and I'm not ready. Well I think I'm not.

Anoud: just do it, ok? What if you're pregnant? Your first job is almost done, you have enough money to not be working, and a husband who loves you. 

Maha: exactly, everything is perfect el7amdelilah.

3 more minutes and I'll know for sure. 

Tick tok.. 

Anoud: do you want a boy or a girl?

Tick tok..

Anoud: you know what would be adorable? If you design the nursery.

Trrrrrrrriing..

I blew out a huge breath, it's time.

I looked at each one of them, and turns out I am pregnant. 

- 

It's been 2 months since Faisal has been gone and a month since I found out that I'm pregnant. No one except 3noud knows yet, I wanted Faisal to be the first to know but I couldn't have that. 

To be extra sure I had gone to the doctor's and got another test, and I'm still pregnant. Along the past month I had accepted the idea, and I slowly started getting attached to the little thing growing inside of me. I went to my first ultra sound yesterday; I'm 9 weeks along but I'm not showing yet, and in 3 weeks I get to hear the baby's heartbeats. 

I carefully wrapped the envelop that had the home pregnancy test, the hospital results, and the ultra sound of the baby. I wanted to give them to Faisal as a gift. 

I left the envelop on the table, and made sure everything was in place for our romantic night  and went downstairs to sit with his parents and wait for him. As we were waiting for him Amal and Najla skyped us from London and told us all about uni and how it was going. 5alty Shai5a proudly told them that my first project as an architect is almost done, and 3my Mit3b announced that him and 5alty are going on a 3 month long trip to Tokyo for some company work. Of course, 3my winked and said that way me and Faisal have the place to ourselves 5alty laughed and I blushed. We were talking excitedly about everything in our lives, and Najla&Amal decided that since they have a week long vacation they're coming home to see Faisal. I decided that when they come we'd announce the news to the whole family, but I think 5alty knows. Usually moms know these kinds of stuff.

Just as we were discussing a family vacation to a resort in India Faisal came in, and everyone welcomed him home. This time it wasn't like the last time bcuz he only went for 2 months, and this time we actually knew that he was alive. 

He came with cuts and bruises, but they weren't as bad as the last time. I don't know if it's pregnancy hormones, or if I just miss my husband but honestly a man in a uniform has something about him. 

2 hours later, after Faisal showered and changed into sweats and a shirt, sadly. We were sitting with his parents and they were filling him in with all that he missed. 

Mit3b: ok fa ana bro7 Tokyo le modat 3 sh'hor 3shan a8dr at3aml m3 elcompany b6are8a t5alehm ywaf8on enhm yt3a8don m3na.

Faisal: bes yoba, leh tro7 Tokyo 3shan tt3aml m3 sharika i7na 9'amnenha?

Mit3b: esh g9dik?

Faisal: y3ny leh ma tro7 Shanghai w tetfahm m3 company thanya w t6'mnlina iyahm, ki4a ykon w83na m3 sharikten min bladen mo5talefin w ksabna. 

Mit3b: 4krney leh ma drstik business?

Faisal: 3shan int dary eny maby amsik elsharika.

I sighed, and maybe a bit too loudly. Faisal understood why I sighed so he tightened his grip on my hand. 

Mit3b: Faisal, ana adra bly ynf3lik. Ana obok w aby m9l7tik. Awl sh3'lik bljeesh kan 3ady, l2na ma kan wrak ela ana w omik. Al7een int rajjal w wrak marh, w akeed tbon 3yal greb. Fa shi3'ilik blsharika a9'mnlik wna obok.

I think I stopped breathing when he said 'tbon 3yal greb' 3my ma tdry how soon. 

Faisal: yoba, elsharika 3la 3eny w rasy bes ana mo ra3y business w int tdry. 3shan ki4a 7a6en 7elna b Amol w Najla..

Mit3b: bes ya wldy ana bt8a3d greb w mafeny shadda ant9'r 5watik. 

Faisal: ajl n5li Maha w Dalal ymskon elsharika. N9 elsharika a3mal handesa a9ln w mo8awlat, w Maha zojty w w7da fena al7en, fa mafe a7sn mnha n9'mna. 3mty Dalal tgdr tmsk 8esm elestethmar sana 3la bal ma t5l9 Amol min eldrasa.

Maha: esh? Maha esh?

Faisal: I know you can do it, 7bebty.

Faisal kissed my hand and all I could think about was: who on earth said I could run a company?

Mit3b: w ent?

Faisal: ana 3ndilkm 5br bes bgola bokrah 3la el3'da b Beet Baba M7mmd. 

Mit3b: yarabi mnik ya wld. 

Faisal: bes blah yoba mo fikra jamda?

Mit3b: Maha bntna w ana dary m7d a7sn mnha bt5a9o9ha, bes ma shawrnaha?

Maha: walla 3my mdri esh agol 9ra7a. Ana ma agdr ardlik 6lb, w int dary bes lw wdik tmsk elsharika a7d 3nda 5bra akthr w shahadat a3la fa ana ma 3ndy ay mshakel.

Mit3b: ana maby a7d thany, inty bnty elthaltha w itha ma amnak 3la flosna n2amen men?

I was so happy, not bcuz of the job, but bcuz my father in law trusted me enough to do it, w enshallah I won't disappoint.

Shai5a: 3ad ya welkm t3bon bnty, mabeha tlha bldwam aby a7fad tra. Bser3a, I'm not getting any younger. 

 Why is everyone bringing up children tonight? After a while of chatting and laughing I excused myself and went up and change so we could have our romantic night. 

As soon as I was done setting up everything, I txted Faisal to come up. It took him exactly 3 minutes to get here.. I wonder what he told his parents. 

He knocked the door a few times before I l opened the door; he took a look at the room and an even longer look at me. 

Maha: if we weren't married and you just came back home from an assignment, what would you be doing?

Faisal: what I've been doing for the past 6 years. 

Maha: which is?

We were having a conversation after we did our 'catching up'. I was still looking for a way to tell him, but I don't know how. 

Faisal: well, I used to come back home b3den sit with my parents and my sisters if they're home. Then, I would go out with my friends. 

Maha: aha, w esh knt tswy m3 ur friends?

I had my palms resting on his chest and my chin on my palms, fhmto keef? No? Ok. Ilmohim I was facing him. So I smiled at his uncomfortable look; I knew my baby wasn't innocent but I wanted him to admit it. 

Faisal: well hma kano bljam3a fa ygolonly esh yswon w esh y9erlhm.

I laughed at how bad he was at hiding stuff, but this was fun. 

Maha: really? That's it?

I acted shocked, and I decided to torture some information out of him. 

Faisal: aha.

Maha: no girls?

Faisal: nooo.

I gave him a look, I knew he was lying. 

Faisal: there was girl talk, bes no actual girls. 

He said it really fast and quiet but I heard it loud and clear. It didn't bother me, bcuz now when we're anywhere I'm the only one he sees. Plus, I'm the one who's wearing his ring, sharing his bed, and carrying his baby. Which reminds me, I have to tell him.

Maha: hmm.. Faisal 7beby..

Faisal: yes baby..

Maha: I have a gift for you!

Faisal: walla? Leh?

Maha: shofha awl w b3den bt3rif leh. 

I slipped on his shirt, and walked over to the table to get the envelop. I gave it to him, and took my spot next to him against the bed.

Faisal: lw mo ely 9ar gbl km sa3a kan ana 5ayef ena ha4y awrag 6lag. 

Maha: ha ha ha very funny. Yalla open it. 

I couldn't sit still, I was shaking in my spot. He sat up to open the envelop once he noticed how serious I am. He opened the envelop and 3 little numbered envelops went out. 

He opened the first one, and it was the home pregnancy test. 

Faisal: ha4a esh? 

Maha: ha4a pregnancy test. 

Faisal: and what do two lines mean? 

Maha: eft7 the 2nd one and you'll know.

He opened the second one, and it was the hospital test. It said POSITIVE in capital bold letters. 

Faisal: inty..?

He had his mouth wide open, and I nodded and added as influence: 

Maha: ee.

Faisal: so you're..?

Maha: yes.

Faisal: can u please say it? 'Cause mo jals astw3b.

I laughed at his expression. 

Maha: I'm pregnant. Y3ny ana 7amil.

Faisal: y3ny ana b9er obo.

Maha: well, yes. 

Faisal: y3ny i7na bn9er om w obo.

Maha: ee.. Faisal 7beby, are u ok?

I stared at his shocked expression, and I started to worry. Maybe he doesn't want this? Maybe it's too soon for him? Oh god, esh bnswy? Maybe he hates it. Maybe I should stop referring to my baby as an it. All my thoughts and worries stopped once I felt his hand on my stomach. 

Faisal: 3indina baby hina.

Maha: ee, 3indina baby. 

Faisal: 6b esh the 3rd envelop?

Maha: eft7a w shof.

He opened it, and a picture of a tiny little blip on an ultra sound fell down. 

Faisal: ha4a our baby?

Maha: ee.

We stared at the picture for what like forever, I was almost certain Faisal ma istw3b ely 9ar. That is until, he bent down and kissed my stomach. 

Faisal: Maha, lazim agolik shy.

Maha: esh?

Faisal: bla9a7 shayen.

Maha: Faisal tklm, I don't know if you have noticed bes the pregnancy is giving me major mood swings. 

Faisal: ok so awl shy, jany elna8il ely I asked for. I start working this sunday blMaba7ith. 

Maha: oh my god! That sounds soo good baby!

I kissed him, and wrapped my arms around his neck excitedly.

Maha: what's the other news?

Faisal: this is our last baby. 

Maha: what? Leh?

Faisal: bcuz something happened the past two months 5lany a9er ma ajeb 3yal.

xo

Fate: Chapter17

I know the chapter is short, but the next 3 chapters are going to be short as well, so don't be shocked.

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I was finally able to get rid of my high heels. We were finally in the hotel room, but we only had 6 hours to rest before our flight to Fiji. After I changed into a tank top and shorts, what I wasn't going to wear lingerie 7ta lw it's our honeymoon. Well, I won't wear it now. 

As I went out of the bathroom, I faced Faisal's shirtless back and I was speechless and this was not bcuz he was hot. My jaw fell, his back was covered in scars and burns. I gasped and that made him turn around.

Faisal: wsho?
Maha: Faisal esh ha4a..

I really wish he didn't turn around. If I thought his back looked bad then his chest looked worse. I pointed at his chest and covered my mouth. Tears pooled my eyes, that was what happened while he was away. I went closer to him, and my finger traced a scar that ran from his shoulder blade to his heart.

Maha: Faisal, esh 9ar hinak?
Faisal: Maha.. please..
Maha: laa! Faisal! NO! Gedrt tnseny my question when you first came back, bes hlmarra I want answers. No, I need answers.
Faisal: ok ok bgolik bes calm down, please.

I sat crossed legged on the bed while he stood in front of me, and I waited for him to start talking. I couldn't stop staring at the scars and burns; they didn't look like they were going to go anytime soon. He had some semi-healed scars though, and they looked more pink than skin colored. In a weird way, I found them hot.

Maha: Faisal btetklm wila keef?

I was a bit impatient, can you blame me? I knew he went through a lot, I just didn't know it was that bad. My poor baby he had a life-long reminder of it now.

Faisal: hey hey hey la t9e7en. I'll be ok, it wasn't that bad.
Maha: Faisal! Shift 6'hrik int? You have scars everywhere! Burns too. Please, bes goli gabel ma anhebl.
Faisal: Ok, the first month was easy. I only got 2 or 3 bullets bes gdro yshelonhm. The second month was easy too I only got bruises. Then a fire was set blbase, but I got out of there without injuries. B3den they took me w some other guys, and then that's when they tortured us for information....

I listened while he told me about everything he's been through, tears rolled down my cheeks silently. The more I knew what they did to him, the more my pain grew. Every whip he told me about, every knife that sliced through his skin, every punch and kick they did to him, I felt while my heart broke.

Faisal: w bes.
Maha: Faisal, 7beby, why didn't you tell me all this before?

I got up from the bed, and sat on his lap. Judge me all you want, but right now I need to be as close to him as possible.

Faisal: 3shan ma kint abek you think of me as weak.
Maha: I think of you as anything, but weak. Even heroes have a right to bleed. So don't worry baby, you're still my hero.

He pressed a kiss to my head, and I leant my head against his shoulder. Sometime between me saying what I said to him, and him kissing my head I fell asleep. We had a long day, and we're going to have an even longer one tomorrow.

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We arrived to Fiji 2 days ago, the weather was perfect. It got pretty chilly at night, but it was warm and hot in the morning. We were having a picnic beside Nakawaga waterfall, and it got chilly and I was wearing a strapless summer dress.

Faisal: brdana?
Maha: errmm, no.

Ok, so we might've had a fight before we go out, I refused to bring a cardigan with me and Faisal warned me. Now I'm cold, and my pride won't let me admit it. Suddenly my shoulders were warm, and my arms too. Faisal brought me his jacket; I don't know what I'll ever do without him.

Maha: shokran.
Faisal: 3fwan baby, you know it wouldn't kill you to listen to me tra.
Maha: o9 don't ruin the moment.

I laughed and covered his mouth with my palm. I so didn't want to admit that he was right.

-

2 weeks later we had to leave Fiji. We were still in bed, and I really really didn't feel like packing.

Maha: lazim ngom, al7in?

Dl3 voice, on.

Faisal: Mahoyyy...

Looks like I need the big guns for this. I put my arm across his stomach, and gave him the puppy face.

Faisal: nooo.. Don't.. Mo the puppy face please!

I still had my puppy face expression on, now I have to offer him something he wants.

Maha: we can even...
Faisal: as much as I'd love to, but our flight is in 7 hours and we haven't packed anything. Plus, did you not get enough?

I threw a pillow at his face, and slipped on his shirt then I went to change.

3 hours later, we had everything packed and we were ready to go. The airport was 2 hours away, so we had to leave.

Maha: I'm going to miss the view, it's so beautiful.
Faisal: you are.
Maha: don't try mister, you're not getting any kisses after what you said.
Faisal: not even a tiny one?
Maha: nop, suck it up.
Faisal: buuut whyy?
Maha: 3shan tt3lm tt6nz marra thanya.

We finally got to the airport, and now it was time for our flight to Paris.

Faisal: excited for Paris?
Maha: 6b3n! I can't wait for all the shopping.
Faisal: I'm so not excited for that, bes tdren what I'm really excited for?
Maha: what?
Faisal: Rome.
Maha: why?
Faisal: bcuz it was where I found the love of my life.

I had a really big awh moment.

-

We've been in Paris a week, and everything was heavenly. The food was great, the shopping was even better, and Faisal was perfect. Until, we got that call.

Faisal: alo?
..
Faisal: ee n3m?
..
Faisal: aha ok.
..
Faisal: lazim? Bes ana..
..
Faisal: ee fahem ok. I'll be there in the morning.

I had a feeling what this is about.

Maha: what?
Faisal: I'm sorry, baby I really am, but I have to go. So, we need to go back home. We can't go to Italy.
Maha: what do you mean you have to go?
Faisal: I have an assignment.
Maha: how long this time? Don't lie to me.
Faisal: it's just for 2 months, and I promise it's only 2 months.
Maha: not longer?
Faisal: no. I won't stay for more than 2 months, I love you.

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I've been back for Riya9' for 2 weeks now, and I've been really sick lately. I keep vomiting (allah ykrmkm) and feeling dizzy, and I have unbelievably painful cramps. I think it's nothing really, but Anoud wants me to go to a doctor.

xo

Fate: Chapter16

There are only 4 chapters left to this story :(.

I posted this earlier than I told you guys bcuz I want to finish as soon as possible.

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I slipped on an open-back emerald green dress with long sleeves and a slit opening that reached half my thigh, and then I slipped on gold pumps that made me 7 inches taller. I had put on my watch, earrings, wedding ring and other rings, but when it got to the necklace it wouldn't close so I had to go out the dressing room and get Faisal to close it for me.

I went out of the dressing room, and turned around holding the ends of the necklace.

Maha: Faisal, 3ady t9kir ly my necklace.
Faisal: enshallah 7bbti.

I was still mad at him if you haven't noticed. Well I'm not mad mad, who could stay mad at him after last night? I was giving him the cold shoulder though. I wanted him to understand that what he did was wrong and that he hurt my feelings, but I also knew eno I should apologize too. Just after he apologizes. My thoughts stopped, well it's more like my brain stopped when his fingers brushed against my spine. He was pushing my hair to the side and then he closed the necklace. I kind of wished the necklace wouldn't close right away. I didn't have to though bcuz he didn't remove his fingers from my neck, and then gently he pressed a kiss to my neck and then slowly he moved down to my shoulder. Just when I thought I couldn't feel any better about myself. He whispered:

Faisal: I have the most beautiful woman in the world as my wife, a7bik.

I think I soared to cloud 9. He was so forgiven.

-

Maha: lw sm7t ha4a yn76 hinak mo hina.

I was working on the construction of the new architecture company branch in Riya9', and my wedding is in exactly 42 hours. I looked down at my watch, and I realized I was late for the last wedding dress fitting.

Maha: ok 5l9o elwires and then close the site. See you guys in a month! La t5rbon my building.

I had everything going smoothly el7amdelilah. My dress was custom made for me, the flowers were ordered even though some weren't in season, honeymoon plans looked perfect. I had my dream wedding and I had the perfect husband.

I went home and I was dragged by Anoud to my room, she threw a champagne colored dress on my face.

Maha: Anoud lazm aro7 to this 3zema? Y3ny it's your mother's side of the family, and I'm really tired from work. I want to relax, please?
Anoud: you leave to some island in 3 days I think you'll have a lot of time for relaxation.
Ghada(Talal's wife): I doubt she'll have any time to relax, enshallah she just doesn't end up like this.

She pointed at her barely there baby bump. Anoud laughed really loudly at Ghada's face. She was right I'm so not ready for a baby enshallah ma arj3 min my honeymoon pregnant like her.

Anoud: remember your face when you told us? You were so embarrassed.
Ghada: akeed bkon embarrassed we went to our honeymoon for 2 weeks and 3 weeks later I find out I'm pregnant, could it get any worse?
Anoud: it could've.
Maha: shlon?
Anoud: well they could have done it before the wedding and well she gets pregnant while a bride. Worst case scenario? Baby bump at the wedding.
Maha: how do you imagine these things?
Anoud: movies, and lots and lots of books. You'd be surprised at what teenagers these days do.
Ghada: 3noud, you're barely an adult.
Anoud: excuse me! Waiiiit we're going off topic here Maha you have to get ready yallah!!

I put on the dress and did my hair quickly. Anoud came in the room and made it clear how much she wants me to put on make up and wear really high heels. Wow, what is with her?

Maha: I'm so getting you back for this. 7ram 3lek why are you dragging me to this when I spent 5 hours under the sun and my wedding is in 38 hours?
Anoud: I still don't know why you're working. You're husband is like a millionaire not including his job. So quit and work on looking good your whole life.
Maha: very funny. Yallaa engl3i 5alina n6l3.

"SURPRISE!" Probably every girl I knew screamed to my face. I was very surprised, but I was impressed too. I mean come on Anoud managed to keep this a secret from me, for a whole month.

Maha: soo 3nouda, keef gdrty t5bena 3ny?
Anoud: oh god Mahoy it was the hardest and most horrible thing I had to do, ever.
Maha: wallaaa?
Anoud: ee I mean come on, ma ged 5bet 3nik ay shy since I was 6 and I stepped on your new-born cat and killed her. I'm still so sorry for that baby, but she was so tiny and I was such a chubby kid.

I laughed at Anoud, she really went off subject a lot.

I had a lot of fun in my 'bridal shower' everyone was so nice to me, the cake was inappropriate and all the gifts were 15+ rated or even 18+ but it was fun. Then I woke up in the morning and it hit me that I'm getting married. I looked at my almost empty bedroom, there is nothing here anymore. Barely any traces of me. My mom came into the room and she was all tear-y and her expression was a mixture of sad and proud.

Maha: hi mama.
Noura: hi 7bebty. How are u feeling?
Maha: good. Mama bt9e7en?
Noura: laaa, leeh a9e7?
Maha: mdri, ymkin l2nik jalsa tms7en 3yonik. W maybe bcuz jalsa y6l3 moya min 3yonik.
Noura: I'm just leaking..

I laughed at my mom's reaction, but I was tearing up myself. 

After a long talk with my mom, I was sitting down in the room. I felt like putting some cream on my body to take my mind off the fact that I was so nervous. I was getting txts from Faisal all day long and they were making me less nervous. 

Some of the texts: 

"كني دعيت الله فرح وجيتني انت استجابه"

"علميهم إنك أجمل ما لقيت وإن كان هالحب غلطه أنتي أحلى ما خطيت." 

"يا أجمل عطايا الله وين بلقى لك مثيل؟ جابك الله لي وصرت لي ضي واكتفيت بك عن كل حي"

He made me happy, and that's what matters. I put my phone down and started putting on the cream.

Anoud: Mahoy, leeh jismik glb a7mr?

Maha: I don't know! I don't know! Is it that bad?

Anoud: umm no? Did u put cream?

Maha: oh god, ee.

Anoud: Maha, keef nsety! Cream and perfume doesn't make contact with your body ela b3d elLaser session ib 3 days.

Maha: oopsy daisy? 

I was panicking inside, what do I do? I did the first thing that came to my mind. Call Faisal.

Maha: Faisal, lazim n2ajel el3irs.
Faisal: what? Leeh?
Maha: jismy glb a7mr.
Faisal: how red?
Maha: it looks like I've been slapped all over.
Faisal: ok ok we can do something about this..
Maha: really? Esh? Think fast I have 4 hours till elzaffa.
Faisal: cold shower.
Maha: what?
Faisal: go have a cold bath. That way your skin will calm down, I think.

So I did have a cold bath, and it didn't do much. I was still panicking, but I didn't tell Faisal bcuz he already was panicking enough for the both of us. Just when my skin was turning normal again, and I calmed down enough to let the lady finish my hair. Anoud gets an asthma attack, and Ghada starts bleeding.

Maha: bes sh3ry mo nfs ely 6lbt'h mnik!

The hairdresser didn't do the style I wanted, but I got a txt from Talal saying that Ghada and the baby are ok. That's good. Oh, and people should be coming in an hour.

Now that my hair is perfect and my make-up is being applied, all I needed was my best-friend. Speak of the devil:

Anoud: I'm here! El7amdelilah just a little asthma attack no problem.
Maha: who gets an asthma attack in mid december?
Anoud: the same type of person who forgets they shouldn't get cream or perfume on their skin after a laser session.
Maha: ok ok point gotten.

When I could see my make up, I wished I was blind. I had too much blush on, the eyeliner was un-even, and my eyebrows were drawn too dark. I was close to tears and not for a good reason. I had half an hour llzaffa and I couldn't feel worse. I wasn't going to call Faisal bcuz that's unfair, he's just so stressed he doesn't need a panicking bride.

Anoud: Mahoy, it's not bad walla, shufy. You even out ur eyeliner, you're good with these things. and I'll help with your brows.
Ghada: really, they're the perfect shape.
Maha: ma y7tajon tfte7?
Ghada: no, they really look good.

I felt a bit better about myself after what they told me and then my mom said that it was time, and all the butterflies, birds, the whole zoo was f-ing fluttering in my stomach. Yeah, I was nervous.

Then I went down, held my bouquet and stood in front of the door. This is it. Ok so nothing about my wedding was traditional bes kint ab3'a ilzaffa 'Haab ils3aad'

(Okay so the normally written parts are Maha's thoughts and the italic-ed red parts are Faisal's)

I walked slowly towards him, and I felt so good about myself. Then it hit me.

I was never more proud of myself. I had this smart, beautiful, and sweet woman as my wife. 

It shouldn't matter if my eyeliner was un-even, or if I had a rash.

All those people around us were the least of my worries. All eyes were on her, and I know why.

Who cares if my brows are too dark, or I have too much blush on.

All this time we put so much energy and time into flowers, music, food, dresses, and everything else. Right now, I know that none of that matters. I get to take this woman home with me, and share the rest of my life with her.

As long as I'm marrying a guy whom I love, and I get to spend the rest of my life with him.

xo

Fate: Chapter15 (Part2)

I should've posted this earlier bes I couldn't ;p.

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I've been in the bathroom for 2 hours. I know I'm such a baby. I'm just too scared, y3ny please we're alone in a hotel far away from home. Also, we kind of had a stupid fight that lead to him going out of here angry then when he came back I snuck into the bathroom and just sat there. It's stupid if you ask me, y3ny he asked me what being engaged to Faris felt like. I told him it was always nice, and perfect. Then he asked me if I loved him, and I said that I did love Faris. Then, BAM! He panicked. I just don't get it, I'm married to you, why would I love another man? Locking myself in this bathroom was a bit stupid bcuz right now I'm super hungry and I can't go out bcause he's out there.

There were 2 knocks on the door, and I jumped from how sudden they were. I didn't reply, 3shan obviously it was him.

Faisal: Maha eft7y elbab.

No way I'm answering you.

Faisal: 7bbti mo jo3ana?

Ifff, I hate how considering he is.

Faisal: 6lbt akel.

I swear I looked like a kid in a candy store.

Faisal: it's coming in a few minutes.

I won't open the door.

Faisal: 6b rdy 3ly, bes!

7beby he sounded so cute. Nopp, never answering or opening. Why did he stop talking? It's been 10 minutes.

Faisal: babe food is here.

My stomach growled in response. Never opening the door.

Faisal: ok I'll leave it by the door.

Still won't open.

Faisal: I'm going out the balcony to get some air.

YES! Go go go go go go go.

Faisal: don't stay too long in there.

I heard the door open and close, and as fast as I could I took the food inside the bathroom. I heard his laugh when he came in.

Faisal: 7bbty mmkin t6l3en? I promise you mar7 aswy shay.

I checked what he got me, he ordered my favourite Chinese dish. 7mar, he knows how to play.

Faisal: 5la9 it's ok I'll go stay with some guys blapartment.

He sounded really angry and then he smacked the door shut. Maybe, I have gone a little over board. He was the one to start the stupid fight though! I opened the door and changed into PJs and then went into the bed. I can't believe he's actually leaving me alone. 

I called Anoud and told her about the whole thing.

Anoud: so you told your husband that you love your ex-fiancée? 

Maha: I didn't say it that way. 

Anoud: and before that you made a big deal out of staying in the same room? 

Maha: maybe?

I'm starting to regret telling Anoud all this.

Anoud: and then you locked yourself in a bathroom?

Maha: ok so maybe I was a bit dramatic..

Anoud: a bit?

Maha: ok so I was a drama queen. 

Anoud: fix things with him.

Maha: no I won't! He made a big deal out of it. He has to apologize.

Anoud: you said you love another man, who happens to be your ex-fiancèe! Y3ny I think you need to be fixing it soon.

Maha: no, I won't.

Anoud: ok then, don't call me at the middle of night worrying bcause he didn't come back.

And I didn't call her, even though I was boiling with worry. He has been gone for 3 hours, he hasn't called, texted, nothing.

I fell asleep waiting for him to come back, I woke up at like 2 AM bcause the room was freezing. I threw away the covers and then it hit me. When did I cover myself with the blanket? When did I even get in the bed? I found Faisal's hoodie on the bed post. We were in August, he packed a hoodie bcause he remembered that I get cold easily. He went out of the hotel room angry, but he came back. he tucked me in the bed, and he took a hoodie, for me. Anoud is right I have to make things right. I found him sleeping on the couch with his feet dangling. I laughed at how adorable he looked. 

I slipped on his hoodie, and went to wake him up. 

Maha: Faisal, 7beby wake up.

I leaned down and put my hand on his shoulder. He moved when I touched him and he was shirtless. I think my heart just went into over drive.

Faisal: huh? Esh fe?

Maha: 7beby, go sleep on the bed. I can fit in the couch just fine. 

He got up and went to the bed and then he turned around to me.

Faisal: nice shorts by the way. 

xo 

Fate: Chapter15 (Part1)

I know a lot of you wanted a post earlier, but this is as soon as I could. I want to be relaxed when I write, but I want to finish this story before school starts as well bcause I know that when school starts I'll be super super busy.

This story is close to the ending</3 I'm so sad about that :(.

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I kept staring at his beautiful face. I think this is the closest to imperfection my husband could ever get.  He had a scar across his cheek, a huge purple bruise covered the other cheek, and a fresh looking gash went across his jaw line, yet; I swear he looked so handsome, so beautiful, so perfect.

My fingers brushed against his bruise lightly, and then they traced his scar. My breath caught in my throat at his reaction; I jumped away from him the minute I realized we were very public with our affection.  I blushed and looked down; Faisal didn't let go of my left hand though, and very subtly he played with my wedding ring.

Faisal: Gwmtikm 3n el3asha?
Amal: Laa a9ln ana w Najla kna gaymeen bn6l3.

Najla gave Amal a weirded out look, but Amal's strict stare made Najla stand up straight and fake smile.

Najla: eeh kna bn6l3 fo8 we woke up early and we need to sleep shwy.
5alty Shai5a: eg3d yoma ajeblik akel?
3my Mit3eb: yallah Shai5a gomi.

5alty looked like she really didn't want to go, who could blame her? Her only son just came back from a year long assignment, and we thought he was dead. Any mom in her position would do the same thing.

Maha: laa it's ok I'm going back home. You should shower and stay with your family.

I said the last part with pain, but I knew I had to go. Faisal tugged my hand and turned me around to face him.

Faisal: esh g9dik? Ree7ty m5eesa?

He was stepping closer towards me and I took a step back. I noticed that 5alty w 3my were going quietly up the stairs.

Maha: laa 6b3n bes!
Faisal: bes esh tben tt5l9en mny?

Another step closer.

Maha: laa faisal mo 89dy ki4a-

I hit a wall. This in not good. I'm trapped. He was getting closer, and I was panicking slowly.

Maha: Faisal, we can't do anything. Your parents are upstairs.
Faisal: So? I missed you, and you're my wife. I can do as I please.
Maha: Nopp, no waay! Stay away!

He sighed, and I relaxed. He won't do anything now.

Faisal: Didn't you miss me 6yb?

Iff 7mar he knows what to say, and how to say it. I can't resist that sad look, why me?

Maha: ela..

I gave up and wrapped my arms around him, but he made a noise that showed that he was in pain. I dropped my arms and looked up at his face with shock, and he looked down at me with disappointment.

Faisal: okaiii I guess I'm not up for physical activity yet.

I laughed and nodded; it hit me that he must be hungry.

Maha: tby takil?
Faisal: sure that sounds good.

While he walked I stared at his back, adry mo wgty bes UNIFORM. HOT.

Faisal: mo ki4a y6al3on ya bint, emshy bes.

I laughed at how well he knew me. It's like he never went.

We sat on the chairs, and Faisal winced in pain once his back hit the chair. I was scared, it looked like his whole upper body hurt, so I had to ask.

Maha: Faisal, esh 9ar henak?
Faisal: momkin ma ntklm blmw9'o3 ha4a al7in? I'm fine and I'm back home.
Maha: you're not fine, you were in pain when I almost hugged you! And then your back hurt when it hit the back of the chair so yeah you're not fine.
Faisal: I'll show you everything, bes mo al7in. Al7in bakel, w I'll stay with you 3shan I missed your voice, your beautiful face, and your gorgeous smile. Enty ely are u ok?
Maha: I am now.
Faisal: n7fty Maha, n7f y5wf. Y3ny enty a9ln n7efa, why?
Maha: I know, bes it's not easy you know! You were in some place that I didn't know where, and- and you stopped calling and then I died inside.
Faisal: 5la9 5la9 it's ok, forget I ever asked. Kl shy wla ur tears.
Maha: you're home now, and you're safe.
Faisal: ee I am, and you know why?
Maha: why?
Faisal: bcause you were my strength when I was weak, and you gave me faith when I couldn't believe.

I started crying after that, not bcause I was sad, but bcause I was happy. El7amdelilah ely he came back to me.

~

Faisal has been home for 3 weeks now, everything was falling into place. I was leaving to Abu Dhabi in 4 hours for Faris & Mahra's wedding with Faisal and my parents are coming later, and he is supposed to be the one picking me up, and going to the airport, but he's not here yet. I might actually kill him.

I know it'll be weird my ex-fiancè invited my husband to his wedding. Apperantly Faris wanted to meet my husband and see if he's good enough. 

I paced back and forth around the hallway then finally my phone rang. 

Maha: MAMA! BABA! Yallaa Faisal barraaa bro7 before it's late.

Noura: ok maha 7bbti la t9r5en. Blsalama 7beebt glby! 

I put on my 6ar7a and went out  while dragging my suitcase. Faisal met me halfway and gave me a light kiss on my forehead w a5e4 my suitcase. 

Faisal: hey baby.

Maha: hii.

Faisal: shfeh el7lu? 

Maha: ma feny shy.

Faisal: shwy w t6geny w mafeny shy?

Maha: t2a5rt.

Faisal: bagy 4 hours 3la elflight!

Maha: still, ma7b at2a5r.

Faisal: asef 7bbti.

Maha: aha.

Faisal: babe, I'm sorry.

Maha: ok ok you're forgiven.

~

When we finally got to the hotel I was so tired I just wanted to go into the room and sleep. 

"I'm sorry Mr.Faisal but the booking here shows that you only booked one room." The concierge told Faisal and I  was too shocked. 

After an hour of trying to get another room, it turned out that we couldn't. I could stay with parents but they're coming later. 

I could stay with Mahra.. but that'll be too baby of me. 

Maha: Does it have 2 single beds?

Man: I'm sorry ma'am but the only one available is a honeymoon suite and there is no way it'll have seperate beds.

Maha: oh god.

Man: Miss? 

Maha: Alx, Maha Alx.

Faisal: it's Mrs. Faisal Alx.

I blushed at that. It was true, I'm his wife now.

Man: oh so you're married, I don't know why you mind! I mean ow my gawd he's like so hot. 

I laughed at him and nodded.

Once we got up to the room, and Faisal opened the room. He looked at me, and gave me a devilish smirk.

Faisal: It's only you and me now. 

xo

Fate: Chapter14

Hello! I got a lot of death threats b3d the last chapter, hope fully I won't get anymore :p!

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March:

My life turned into an empty routine, I wake up, shower, go to uni, go back home work on assignments, and then just sit on the couch feeling empty, and lifeless. Danah has been trying to get me to go out, but I don't want to. I lost the enthusiasm to do anything, even my grades dropped. My leggings and skinny jeans were replaced with sweats and huge hoodies. I haven't taken proper care of my hair in ages; it's always tied up in a bun these days. Faisal's parents are coming to check up on me in a few days; I look like a ghost. I lost so much weight, losing all my curves in the process, I was left with my skin and bones only. My eyes are swollen all the time by now from how much I cry. I miss him terribly.

April: 

It's been 8 months; I'm slowly losing hope. I pretend that I'm better, because I know my lifelessness is affecting my family and friends. Anoud spent 3 weeks with me, and she just left back to riyadh. Mahra and Faris are engaged now, their wedding is in the summer. I'm really happy for them. Our wedding was supposed to be this December, me and Faisal's wedding. I don't see that happening any time soon though. They still didn't tell us anything about him. All I wear now are his shirts and hoodies, I smell him every where. Graduation is coming up; I thought I'd be more excited, but I'm not. I was excited bcause graduation meant we're going to have our wedding, but I don't have a groom. Oh! I finally caved today and I went out for dinner and a movie with S3oud, I had so much fun! Thank god Danah joined us though, or it would've been awkward. He knows about Faisal, and he's been so supportive. El7amidelah ena I have him, and Danah or I would've gone crazy.

May:

My graduation is in 3 weeks and I could not be less excited about it. I'm much better that I were the past 9 months, but that's bcause I turned numb. I don't have any feelings anymore. I'm just a fake smiling, laughing, and eating robot. I don't eat that much either. I'm staring at myself in the mirror right now, my reflection is scary. She's a pale, skinny, lifeless corpse. I hated my reflection; this is the first time I see myself in months. I shouldn't have looked, now I know why my mom tears up whenever she sees me. I didn't realize love  did this to you, I don't know if what me and Faisal have is just love. It's the work of fate. I wiped my tears quickly and I put on my clothes. I was heading for a job interview my dad managed to get  me. One of his friends has a huge architecture company, and they are opening a branch in Riya9' and they want a woman to get the job. To get the job  I had to make a model, and some blue prints of what I think the Riya9' branch should be like.

June:

They pronounced him dead. I got the news the day I arrived in Riya9', and the moment I heard it a piece of me, no all of my being died with him. I remember that moment vividly:

I had just went into the house, and I went straight to my bed bcause I didn't have it in me to deal with anyone. I laid in bed and stared at my milka pictures, he looked so happy. We looked so happy. There were a couple of pictures that were taken when we didn't know; the photographer wanted true happy moments and she did a good job of capturing them. I don't think I've ever been happier than I was that day. Flipping the last page of the album 4 pictures fell down and a letter fell with them. Weird, I never saw those. The pictures looked old, they had a little boy and a little girl. The girl was wearing a pink fluffy sparkling dress. I couldn't believe it! That was me, and the little boy was Faisal. This was taken 16 years ago, at my mother's friend's daughter's party. I remember that party really well, I had met a cute boy who chased all the bullies away. That boy was Faisal. I looked at the pictures again, and again, and again. There was one with me and him playing on the swings,  one of me kissing his cheek, one with us hugging, and one with me applying lip gloss to him. I laughed at that one. I remembered that I should read the note with them.

'To the love of my life,

I can officially call you my wife. I have waited for this day for 4 long years, and it finally came. You looked gorgeous blmilka. You always look beautiful, and I'll keep telling you that till the last day of my life. I know you'll be angry once you find out that I have an assignment but hopefully it'll be my last bcause I applied for a transfer. My new job enshallah won't be exactly what you call safe but it won't take me away from home. I know I could work at my dad's company and just save myself the trouble but that isn't what I want to do with my life. I want to serve my country and make my children proud, all 6 of them. Yes we're having 6, I was going to say we'll have 10 bes 5ft you run away and leave me. I want as much mini yous as I can get. Today is the start of the rest of our lives together, and hopefully we'll have much more. I hope our days will be as beautiful as you are, and our kids as gorgeous and kind as you are. You're probably wondering where I got the last 4 pictures from. My mom found them in an old album, apparently she thought you looked very familiar and she recognized your mother's name. When she told my aunt about you, she remembered the name, and told us that her and your mother were friends from high school. Fate brought us together when we were kids, and then it reunited us as teenagers. Hopefully, fate will bring me back to you after this assignment. I think that's more than enough proof that we're meant for each other. 

Forever yours with love, 

Faisal.'

I cried so hard while reading his letter. I read it over and over again till I memorized it. He's been gone for almost a year and some where along the way I lost hope that he'll ever be back, but my faith in god never wavered and after reading his letter it's like all the hope I lost came back, but with more force this time. After my crying calmed, I could hear sounds at the door. It sounded like my brothers. 

Maha: ed5lo.

The door opened and my brothers' heads peeked in through the door. Suddenly all 3 brothers were pushing each other into the room. I wiped my tears and nose in a very unlady like move, and then I stared at them coming and whispering to each other.

Maha: fekm shy?
Turki: Maha 7bebty we have to tell you something. 

My eyes widened in alarm it's about Faisal, I could feel it in my bones. 

Talal: shufy enty 3arfa ena ela3mar byad allah..
Abdulaziz: Maha, they think that.. They think that Faisal is dead.

I felt like a piece of me was ripped, no I felt like my whole heart was being ripped away from me and stepped on till it was only a pool of blood and muscles. 

Turki: they're not sure though, bcause a lot of men were missing and.. and the corpses' faces are too damaged for anyone to know who it really is.
Talal: so they're bringing the corpses for family members to identify them. 
Abdulaziz: Maha, Mahoy, Mahawy, Faisal could still be alive, ok?

I didn't react in any way, I was numb. Dead inside, as dead as the corpse they are bringing.


It can't be true. They couldn't even identify the body, so they're bringing him back home to us. No they're bringing a corpse, a dead body for us to see and say if he's him or not. I can't do it,  I can't. I am supposed to head down to the base today, a knock at my door made me snap back to the harsh reality I didn't want to face. Turki's face popped into the room. He was the one taking me to the base.

Turki: jahza?
Maha: Turki maby.

I heard my brother sigh and come sit next to me; the minute he put his arm around my shoulder I burst into tears. All the emotions I had been suppressing, all the sadness, the depression, the anger, the fear came out. I was heart broken, and it f*cking hurt.

2 hours later we were at the base, I got chills once I got down from the car even though it was mid july and we were in Riya9'. It was an empty, emotionless, and cold place. It was so void of any kind of emotion. I was surprised that a guy as romantic as Faisal spent most of his days here.

We were allowed in the morge to see the corpses a few minutes later, the moment I went in the smell of death hit me like bullets.

Faisal's parents, sisters, and I went through every corpse they had.

First:

5alty Shai5a: La2 ha4a mo Faisal. He doesn't have a mole on his elbow.

Second:

Amal: No it's not Faisal. This guy has a birthmark on his cheek.

Third:

Maha: No this guy isn't Faisal, bcause Faisal has a pink not healed scar on his hipbone.

I blushed while saying that bcause that meant I saw much more of Faisal then I should have.

The same went with the fourth, the fifth, and the sixth. They all were horrible to look at but thankfully none of them were Faisal.

August:

It's been a year since Faisal has been gone. A year without his handsome face, his charming smile, and his cute little dimple. I miss him terribly; it's like a piece of me is missing. I was supposed to go to his house today, 5alty shai5a wanted me to come have dinner with them. I didn't feel really up to it b3den I remembered eno they may be going through the same thing, and that it's hard for them as well.

During dinner we talked about a lot of subjects; my new job, Faisal as a kid, wedding arrangements. It bothered me to some existent but it was like they had so much hope that he was coming back, no it was like they were certain he was coming back home. I loved their positivity and I wished my hope was as strong as theirs. While eating 3mi mit3b asked me about my new job, but I couldn't answer. I choked on my own saliva, bcause the door opened and standing in front of me was someone I never imagined I'd see ever again. He was back.

Everyone on the table stood up and ran over to him, they hugged him and showered him with kisses. On the other hand, I stood shell shocked and I just stared. After he managed to push everyone away, he came to me and he put his hands on my cheeks. We stood staring at each other for ages, and I noticed everyone went quiet. Tears fell from my eyes without my permission, and I couldn't do anything. The moment I felt his lips on my forehead and cheeks; it was like something snapped inside me.

xo