Unexpected: Chapter2

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It's been 2 weeks since I made the deal with Turki, w his mother called mine awl ma galha. Ya 7lelha 5alti Noura marra mt7msa, she came 3 days ago with Maha 3la asas yshofony bes kant zy a gathering mo 56ba since we've known eachother for more than 21 years now. 6b3n 3shan ma abyn ena fe shy swet nafsi mst7ya w eny ab3'ah w jaa youm elshofa.

I wore a knee length skirt, and a 3/4 sleeved blouse. I left my hair to air dry and put on mascara, for some reason I was very nervous. I don't know why; I've known Turki my whole life and this whole thing is just an act so our parents woldn't doubt anything. I guess I'm just worried about the results of this crazy decision.

Anoud's Mother: yalla 3noud mama t3ali, obok ynadi.
Anoud: enshallah mama al7en bjy.

I took a deep breath, and went down the stairs. I saw how my mother was staring at me, with that look that says 'i-can't-believe-my-baby-is-all-grown-up' and her eyes are all teary. I smiled, and my heart broke at this game me and Turki are playing. The only thing we thought about was our own needs, and never once did it cross our mind how it would affect our families. I hope to god that I made the right decision.

I went into elmjls and quietly sat next to my father. I looked at Turki; he was smiling at me, and I automatically smiled back. I hated Turki with a passion, or well I used to. Now, I just don't like him much. My father said that he was going out to leave us 'alone'. I really wanted to cry and tell him to not leave. I don't want to be alone with Turki; he scares me. I have to get used to it though, we're going to live together for probably the next 6 years. Ugh, what was I thinking? I'm 19! I'm not ready to be married, and to make it worse I was marrying myself off for a deal that might ruin my whole life or fix it into perfection.

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A year later, life while being engaged to Turki was not as bad as I thought. We didn't talk much, but he called me at least once a day. If he knew that I was with Maha he'd txt me non-stop and call so it would be more convincing that we're 'in love' of course no one except the two of us knew the truth of this whole thing. It was a pain to not tell Maha, but she's so happy at the idea of us getting married I can't do it to her. I kept myself busy a lot. I worked really hard and managed to graduate college this year, so me and Turki could leave to Germany by the end of the summer. I applied for masters in Law to continue with my Law degree, and so far my education life looks good el7amdelilah. To keep myself busy, I planned Maha a bridal shower that is just plain amazing.

Now, I just had to get her to go there. I threw a short peach colored dress at her, that was gorgeous but for some reason she never wore and some nude really high heels. Maha was being stubborn as usual and I have to no clue on how to deal with her.

Anoud: yallaa mahoy elbsi elfstan, please! Bnt25r.
Maha: 3noud lazim aro7? T3bana w mali 5ilg w b3d bokrah 3rsi mdri bokrah.
Anoud: y5ty e6l3i! Shmi hwa shwy, la7ga 3la Faisal wallaa btg3den sh'hr mgblh 5shta!
Maha: klba 3noud elfstan mrra 9'ayg!
Anoud: Maha wallaa you look good! 7ta more than good hot! Can we go now? We're late.
Maha: ok ok!

I walked out of the room and I took out a tiny make up mirror to check my reflection and I wasn't really looking where was I going and bumped into Turki's hard chest. My lipstick smudged his white shirt, and I panicked bcuz it looked like a girl gave him a kiss right under where his heart is. I have no idea how to remove that. What if he's going out?

Anoud: shi2 shi2!! I'm so sorry 7beby! Off 3ndik makan mohem tro7lh?

I tried rubbing the stain with my hand to remove it, instead I was making it worse. I was more shocked at myself for calling him 7beby bl3ada ata2te2 lma agolha bes hlmarra 6l3t 3ady. Zeen mny enha 6l3t l2na 3ndy e7sas ena Maha jalsa t6al3. I was still rubbing the smudge very strongly, and I was kind of liking it. 3shan akon 9re7a Turki is a really fit guy, so  touching him isn't exactly so bad I'm supposed to hate him though. Well, I can hate him but love his body. I could hear him laugh and my reaction, but I was too busy blushing and trying to remove the smudge. Fj2a 7a6 ydah 3la ydi 3shan awgf, w ana 6al3t fog w kint 7a6a el6ar7a 3la rasy 3l5feef fa awl ma rf3t rasi 6a7t w km 5o9la min sh3ri 6a7o 3la wjhi. I was too busy staring at Turki to notice that he had his fingers on my cheek, and then Maha coughed and we jumped apart. Atw83 eny glbt 6ma6a.

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3 months later I was busy making wedding and milka arrangements, bcuz me and Turki weren't exactly a typical couple we decided to have the milka and the wedding on the same day and that they would be small. So bes family, and close friends.

It was finally the wedding day. I was scared, nervous, and excited. I didn't think that my marriage would be a deal, but that's what it was. I never would've believed that I'd be getting married to the guy who bullied me as a kid, and it never crossed my mind that I'd hate my husband on my wedding day. I don't know why, but I never liked Turki. He used to hit and kick me and pull my hair, and when I went through my 'fat' years he always liked to point out my weight.

I'm doing this to have a chance with Waleed. I don't have to do anything, and as mean as Turki might be he'd never make me do anything. Maha came into the room, and checked that my hair was in place and that my dress looked perfect. My hair was braided into a flower waterfall, and my dress had a V from the back and was covered with lace all over the upper part with long sleeves. I looked at my reflection one more time, and I faked the hugest smile I have ever faked. I took a deep breath, and stood at the end of the hall.

 ألف صلي و سلم عليك يا حبيب الله محمد ألف صلي و سلم عليك يا حبيب الله محمد

My stomach is aching.

يا العنود سمي و ادخلي باليمين يمناك يا فال البنات الصالحات

What am I doing?

يالغالية هالليلة كل المسلمين قارين لك المعوذات

I'm so so so stupid.

محروسة بإذن الله رب العالمين محروسة بإذن الذي وهب  قلبك صلاة

I won't cry.

لا يالأصيلة مافي داعي تحلمين الواقع بنفسه يلبي الأمنيات

I'm nearly there.

وش هالوقار الي وقفوله القاعدين هبيه سكنت داخلها مجموعات خصال

I hope people don't notice me shaking.

عقل و سنع طيبة رقي علم و دين ما تبقى كلمة غير لله الكمال

A few more steps. Will it ever end?

الله يهني قلبك بهالوالدين بين تعب السنين و إخلاقك مثال

I'm so sorry, mama.

يا رب تمم هالمحبة الهايلة بينها و بين خلانها

Ween elm7ba bes? Ha4a klh deal.

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I finally got llKosha. Now it was the men's zaffa. He came in with my dad, and his. He looked so handsome, but it would never be enough. Once he sat down next to me, and kissed my forehead he whispered into my ear:

Turki: you look beautiful, mashallah.

I blushed and looked down at my ring.

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After cutting the cake and taking millions of pictures, it was time for us to go to the hotel before leaving to our honeymoon. We were going to Mallorca and London, and I was excited about shopping, but I was dreading the sleeping arrangements.

I really hope he booked 2 rooms, or I would have a tantrum. I took off the pins in my hair, and washed my face from the make up. I opened the suitcase to look for my PJs all I could find was lacy lingerie that I'd never wear.

Oh god, what is this? Ya allah. B4b7 Maha! I txted her and showed her how angry I was and she simply replied that I'll thank her later. What do I do? He didn't book this room so we're sharing it for the night, and I have nothing to wear. I sat on the floor, and stared at the suitcase. It just hit me how bad this all is. Fj2a ashof Turki stretched his hand and he was holding a shirt and boxers.

Anoud: Thank you.

I didn't get to hear his reply bcuz I locked myself in the bathroom as fast as I could, and when I was into his clothes. I cried. I started crying bcuz I'm probably going to regret this my whole life. I started crying bcuz there's no coming back now. I started crying bcuz I was really really really stupid.

To be continued..
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